You can do it!
I know it must seem like the most peaceful and easiest way out at the moment, but please, please, even for me who you don't know, please try and be so incredibly strong and do not go through with it.
I have Borderline Personality Disorder and therefore it's quite hypocritical, I guess, for me to tell you to abstain but I had Mum on the phone this morning who had been drunk since 4.00am and was trying to down a bottle of Valium. The fear, panic and hurt I felt, made me realise what I had done to others so many times.
Saying that, I totally understand that the pain engulfs you sometimes so much that you don't feel there is any other way.
I beg you, please take baby steps, if at all possible, just take the next few hours at a time and see how you feel. We all know that the escape is there for us eventually if we wish to take it, but please can I tell you, from my own experience, if it had ever worked, then I wouldn't have ever met never mind spent so many years with my wonderful husband.
I know it sounds trite, but none of us know what is round the corner, and I don't mean that to sound like it has to be a partner, there are so many things in life that are joyous to experience. For me, visiting my parents and seeing a clear dark sky with sparkling stars.
Anyway, I probably sound quite soppy now, but once again I plead with you, give life another chance, a few hours at a time before you make the fatal decision and please send me a private message if ever you want to communicate privately.
You are in my thoughts -
Love Claire x
