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randomworry
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i really depressed right now and have been for a couple of months.
it started while in a univeristy laboratory and i was working with radioactive iodine (I-125) i accidently touched my face with my contaminated glove and started to freak out.
at the end of the practical i checked my face with the geiger counter and the reading was a bit above background radiation. i didnt tell the demonstrator as i started to panic.
when i got home i was so scared i started coughing up blood because of the panic attack and thought i may have injested the radioactive iodine so there was no hope.
i then wrote a suicide note and tied my dressing gown cord in a noose to hang myself. i kept crying all night and eventually my mum took me to a mental ward because i wanted to kill myself.
i have since been released but am still very depressed and suicidal because of the damage i may have done to myself with the radioactive iodine.
how do i get myself out of depression like this- i think i will get cancer now because of my exposure as i may have ingested some of it.
some one please help......any words of encouragment. this is serious and not a joke at all.
it started while in a univeristy laboratory and i was working with radioactive iodine (I-125) i accidently touched my face with my contaminated glove and started to freak out.
at the end of the practical i checked my face with the geiger counter and the reading was a bit above background radiation. i didnt tell the demonstrator as i started to panic.
when i got home i was so scared i started coughing up blood because of the panic attack and thought i may have injested the radioactive iodine so there was no hope.
i then wrote a suicide note and tied my dressing gown cord in a noose to hang myself. i kept crying all night and eventually my mum took me to a mental ward because i wanted to kill myself.
i have since been released but am still very depressed and suicidal because of the damage i may have done to myself with the radioactive iodine.
how do i get myself out of depression like this- i think i will get cancer now because of my exposure as i may have ingested some of it.
some one please help......any words of encouragment. this is serious and not a joke at all.