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Lori_2315
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I’m not sure if I have an eating disorder. I’m not really sure what’s classed as one. I hate eating. Anytime I eat I feel disgusting and guilty. Today I had a can of coke after only drinking water for about 7 months and I feel like I’ve failed.
I feel ill and tried all the time, I’m extremely pale, have dark circles under my eyes and always feel shaky/dizzy.
I haven’t had a good relationship with food for about 2 years now. I usually go around 24 hours without eating and then I’ll sort of stuff my face with food (that’s a bit of an exaggeration). I’ll eat maybe some chocolate or something unhealthy, and then have dinner, then maybe something else after. I counted my calories for a few days but have now realised I was usually eating much less than the recommended amount. Recently I read the recommended amount is around 2000 for women which I have been way off.
I hate what I see in the mirror, I feel as though I’m fat but when I weigh myself I’m my usual weight (though I have lost a few stones in just under a year (about 8/9 months) by cutting down food) I don’t feel as though that’s a lot to lose by not eating, which is why I don’t really think I have an eating disorder. But I’m not really skinny, although I have noticed recently my hips stick out more than they did and I’ve been getting a bit worried about it.
I feel guilty even if I’ve gained a pound. But when I lose a pound I feel relieved. I can’t really eat a lot now. I read somewhere that not eating can cause your stomach to shrink (don’t know if it’s true or not) but I can’t seem to eat as much as I used to. Eating a full normal sized portion of dinner (even after not eating for 24 hours) leaves me feeling uncomfortable and bloated.
does this sound like an eating disorder? Or am I just bad at eating? I probably sound disgusting but after not eating for about 24 hours, I can’t seem to stop myself at night. I feel so greedy and revolting. My family always tell me how thin I am but it’s not enough for me, I need to lose the weight I’ve got.
I’m tired of feeling so unhealthy all the time. I want to have energy and enjoy my life but I can’t seem to do it
I feel ill and tried all the time, I’m extremely pale, have dark circles under my eyes and always feel shaky/dizzy.
I haven’t had a good relationship with food for about 2 years now. I usually go around 24 hours without eating and then I’ll sort of stuff my face with food (that’s a bit of an exaggeration). I’ll eat maybe some chocolate or something unhealthy, and then have dinner, then maybe something else after. I counted my calories for a few days but have now realised I was usually eating much less than the recommended amount. Recently I read the recommended amount is around 2000 for women which I have been way off.
I hate what I see in the mirror, I feel as though I’m fat but when I weigh myself I’m my usual weight (though I have lost a few stones in just under a year (about 8/9 months) by cutting down food) I don’t feel as though that’s a lot to lose by not eating, which is why I don’t really think I have an eating disorder. But I’m not really skinny, although I have noticed recently my hips stick out more than they did and I’ve been getting a bit worried about it.
I feel guilty even if I’ve gained a pound. But when I lose a pound I feel relieved. I can’t really eat a lot now. I read somewhere that not eating can cause your stomach to shrink (don’t know if it’s true or not) but I can’t seem to eat as much as I used to. Eating a full normal sized portion of dinner (even after not eating for 24 hours) leaves me feeling uncomfortable and bloated.
does this sound like an eating disorder? Or am I just bad at eating? I probably sound disgusting but after not eating for about 24 hours, I can’t seem to stop myself at night. I feel so greedy and revolting. My family always tell me how thin I am but it’s not enough for me, I need to lose the weight I’ve got.
I’m tired of feeling so unhealthy all the time. I want to have energy and enjoy my life but I can’t seem to do it