I have been smoking for about 4 years, and I’ve had a helluva relationship with weed. For a year I did not go a day without smoking at least once. It aggravated my anxiety and gave me hardcore paranoia, borderline delusions. Maybe I can’t really blame that on the weed, but rather the fact that I have these anxiety issues to begin with. Too much smoke makes these things extreme for me.
I gave it up for a while but in recent months I’ve been smoking everyday again. It does help me calm down when things are really bad. It grounds me and allows me to focus on other things for a while.
Or, I’ll get high and start crying uncontrollably, but in a cathartic way. Like I was holding it in and i finally let go.
However, my mother suffers with addiction to heroin so the idea of drugs has always made me a bit uncomfortable. Obviously weed and heroin are very different, but, ya know.