- Nov 13, 2020
I've recently been diagnosed with type 2 bipolar disorder. Up until my diagnosis I could never find the words to describe how I felt. The only way I knew how to describe it were with colors. When I am in mania, the world is shades of gold and white. Everything is bright and beautiful, but as the colors start to change, so does my mood. I know when I'm sinking into a depressive episode because I start to see the world in light grays. Once I'm in dark blue, nothing can get me out of my depressive episode. But I'm frustrated! No one gets what I mean! They don't understand colors and the way things change. I just can't seem to articulate the colors well enough. Even here I am not describing them accurately. I looked it up, and apparently, this can happen. So, I guess my questions is: does anyone else experience this? Does anyone understand what I'm trying to say? No one knows how to handle my bipolar disorder. They don't understand that it's more than mood swings. No one understands the colors.