Everywhere I go in my life everyone ends up hating me. Nobody wants to take me seriously or even listen. I've had a bad relationship with people in general all my life, because I've been singled out more, ostracized, bullied and shamed. My friends won't even answer my calls, or texts anymore. My own family ignores me. I'm starting to truly feel like a worthless human being, more so then ever before. I spend all my time in my room, or in the wilderness. I honestly don't want to live around human beings anymore, the ones who have made me hate myself. The ones who punish me for being me. Every time I start to get better something or somebody completely sabotages my self esteem. Every time I interact with people its a struggle. Even here I feel like I'm talking to myself. I took a break for awhile and nobody answered except one, when I came back. If I'm not welcome here I just won't come back at all. Clearly nobody gives a fucking damn. Just suspend my account already obviously nobody even cares. Its not like its going to matter after I'm gone anyway.