- May 16, 2020
I constantly have intrusive thoughts that become worse at nighttime. Every time I do something or make a decision my mind keeps asking me why I did what I did. I feel like I have to give strong reasons for the simplest things. For example I won't let myself relax until I find a valid argument for why I drunk milk instead of water. I also have intrusive thoughts about my personality. I don't have reasons for having the personality that I have therefore my mind doesn't stop questioning me. But the worst thing is the doubt I have about my core beliefs. I have reasons for those but I keep doubting them out of nowhere. And it's not as simple as changing an opinion. When I give reasons for one of them I immediately begin to doubt another one. In conclusion my mind doesn't allow me to make decisions, have a personality and have opinions. I feel like the only way to avoid this is lay in bed all day and do absolutely nothing. I don't know how to explain it better.