- Jan 9, 2021
I am 24 and have always been irritable. I can sleep a very long time. I have such bad social anxiety its very had for me to even make myself go to the store. I probably go out once every 4 months. I have a toddler and I am easily irritated with her. I hide it as much as possible. Recently, I decided to go to a psychiatrist to be evaluated. She diagnosed me bipolar 1 due to me telling her since I was young, I would be unmotivated and couldn’t get off the couch for a week, then all the sudden I would get this intense adrenaline rush for two days where I could not stop cleaning and organizing. I would be srubbing walls till 5 am. She prescribed me lamatrogine. I instantly felt amazing. My anxiety was gone for the first time in forever. I was motivated but not overboard motivated. I was able to focus and it felt like my mind calmed down alot. Although, I had a sever allergic reaction to it. I am now too scared to take mood stabilizers and antipsychotics. I asked my doctor over the phone if I could please try an antidepressant. She refuses. I don’t understand! I am not suicidal, i do not feel depressed. I just have a serious social phobia and anxiety and I feel lazy most of the time then i get adrenaline and clean! How can trying an antidepressant cause that much harm? Im extremely self aware and if I feel the slightest bit off, such as feeling depressed or bad thoughts, I would of course call her right away!