- Feb 6, 2021
- Punta Gorda, Florida, USA
I often think about whether it would be better for me to know when and how I would die, or for it to just happen without my knowing it. Would it be better for me to just die in my sleep, or would I want to know that I'm going to die NOW and this is how I'm going to die? If I'm told I have terminal cancer, would I prefer knowing EXACTLY when I would die, or just let it happen to me without my knowing exactly when it would happen? I'm often torn between which scenario I would prefer (as if I had a choice). But with suicide, I would know when and how. I think I'd like to know when and how I'm going to die as long as it would be painless. If I were to be in a lot of pain, I would want it to just happen without my knowing it.