- Jan 15, 2009
Funny, i have just been having this conversation with my sister, i would happily get my own place and do my shopping online and live like a hermit, not having to deal with these rapid fire paranoid thoughts. My docs say it wont help me and i have to push myself to go out and put myself in anxiety provoking situations. I was in tesco with friends for the first time sober in 2 years the other day and i couldnt focus on anything we were buying because i was too busy analysing everyone trying to work out what they thought about me.I try to stay in and its better when I am all alone I dont go out unless I am pushed into it and then theres a battle of wills! I get too much interference from others if I go out everything seems more intense and I am less able to concentrate. Dealing with rapid fire paranoid thoughts and trying to combat them and rationalise everything all the time drives me up the wall. When I am all alone it is much easyer so its a hermit life for me.