- Mar 11, 2020
- somewhere out there
They say they gave me schizophrenia which in its early stages can mimick aspergers but that I was actually originally autistic to begin with.
That one I will go with, it's very likely.
And my voices just said 'no its bloody certain'.
I didn't have an asperger like personality (so to speak, I am not sure there is one) before I got schizophrenia but I was still autistic all the same.
No speech delay though and a bit of a temple grandin.
My voices seem to think I was autistic savant...
Might explain my good grades academically because I am in idiot in every other way, especially socially and always have been.
Never fitted in anywhere...
I am ok with it, I am 45, I'm used to it...
I am apparently a weirdo. But a harmless one.
Apparently my voices think I am funny.
Interesting I have autism and have had multiple persona's over the years. I feel more myself now I live alone and have no pressure to socialise and go to work etc. I think mine is some kind of dissociation as I've always done it, but sometimes I wonder how would I know if it was something like Schizophrenia brought on by the peri-menopause (apparently women can get late onset schizophrenia due to this) and these 'multiple alters' are a delusion or I actually do have multiple alters?
I don't know how I'd know for sure but I've no intention of telling any doctors cos while autism/learning disability is on my records they leave me alone cos you can't fix that with medication! It's 'normal' to 'live in your own world' if you're autistic!!! but if you're schizophrenic you get sectioned and drugged while they try and make you 'normal' again!!!