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Do you ever feel like a reject when you're cycling?

Not_Crazy_Yet

Not_Crazy_Yet

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Today was not a good day. I had to see my psychotherapist this morning and took my meds WAAAY earlier than usual. Luckily she didn't notice my SH wounds. (I was worried about a trip to the psych ward) then I had a nap before work. I couldn't take another dose before work. During work I could tell i was off my game. I was trying really hard but kept fucking up. I could tell everyone was staring at me. I could feel their eyes on me. I was going way to slow. Sometimes I wish I could blend in. Almost snapped at the manager. I gotta find a center. Sigh. Maybe this is as good as it gets.
 
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I do believe some level of acceptance is required in terms of leftover symptoms. It isn't a problem when off work or when you don't have responsibilities but i can imagine when you are in work, it is like being a farmer who is are allergic to pollen.
 
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Idk. Yesterday was really bad. Well it wasn't terrible I guess. Its not a nice thing to admit but I like to be doing better than everyone else. It makes the voices happy when I feel superior to others. Then I can join in on their conversations about other people rather than them talking shit about me.
 
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My self esteem has taken a knock too. I have to find other ways of feeling good about myself and at least as equal in worth as others.

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It really is best to have a regular routine with how and when you take your meds. I take mine before bed, that way same time each night and no lethargy during the day as slept through most of the side effects. That's how my Psych and GP told me to take them. I missed a dose and took them in the morning once and it was like trying to get through the day drunk and wading through treacle.

I know how you feel though, I take 150mg Seroquel and 1.5mg clonazepam and the other night I didn't take the Seroquel by accident. Had a rough night's sleep and felt like rubbish the next day, my family said I looked rough and I felt it. Luckily it was not a work day or I probably would have called in sick, so bravo for you for toughing it out.
 
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I had a regular routine. I took my meds the same time I had been taking them in the hospital. But I take 200mg of seroquel and 500 Mg of depakote in the morning and the same of both at night and if I take my evening dose at my normal time I cant work cuz i feel drunk. And it doesn't help that I have a 1.5 mile walk each way as I get so tired from the walk anyway. Last night was a rough time with voices, visual hallucinations, and tactile hallucinations that kept me up all night so I called out of work today.
 
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