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Do these fleeting thoughts classify as mood swings?

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emilyann16

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Within seconds or minutes my mind changes from “let’s move forward, go to college, work hard and get a good job and better yourself” and then the next moment it says “don’t bother you’ll be dead soon, enjoy the remaining months of your life”
And I have episodes of crying, irritability and frustration every now and then. I start panicking and I become impulsive, my mind is racing and I can’t stop stamping my feet and hitting myself. What is that? A panic attack? Manic episode? Mental breakdown? I don’t know what term is best to describe it so I’d love to receive some advice on this please

And I’d love to thank everyone on here for being so lovely xx
 
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iWILLOBTAINMENTALHEALTH2

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I'm sorry you suffer with that. Sounds like mood swings to me. I get like that but I don't physically hurt myself anymore. I'm mostly stable thanks to medication. Do you see a mental health provider? If not please do. You shouldn't have to suffer like that. 🤗
 
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I'm sorry you suffer with that. Sounds like mood swings to me. I get like that but I don't physically hurt myself anymore. I'm mostly stable thanks to medication. Do you see a mental health provider? If not please do. You shouldn't have to suffer like that. 🤗
I’ve been with mental health services for 7 years and I’ve tried 5 different medications with different doses and the only outcome is weight gain or extreme tiredness. I’ve had no luck.

I might make another post soon because I was going to discuss something slightly controversial - I have researched physician assisted suicide over the past few months and I’m going to assign myself a “12 month challenge” where I try my hardest to move on and live my life in attempt to mediate (or at least alleviate) my BPD - I’ve promised myself, if no luck in 12 months time, to apply for the assisted suicide. I think some US states allow it and so do the Netherlands and Switzerland. I’d be willing to travel.

I could never do it to myself. I’m scared if I do it wrong and I end up like a vegetable on life support ... I want a professional to help. They might reject me yet, but with my diagnosis it should aid my wishes.


I’m not going to make any harsh decisions however, especially not in the near future. I’ve just ran out of options

Thank you for your answer and thank you for clarifying my suspicions - I had an inkling that it was mood swings

:grouphug::thanks:
 
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iWILLOBTAINMENTALHEALTH2

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Please don't do that. You need to keep trying different medications and therapy. Please hang in there. You will find the right treatment someday. 🤗❤
 
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