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annie321

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Hi :)

I'm new here, so I'm not sure if I am doing things right so please let me know if I am posting in the wrong place! I am posting in the PD forum as this is perhaps the most relevant to my symptoms.

Basically, I am here to ask for an opinion from those who understand mental illness as to whether my behaviour is "normal". I have never discussed my feelings with a doctor and I have only told 2 boyfriends (after a long time) and both of which had their own diagnosed problems so weren't bothered or said that my behaviour is normal. I don't want to self-diagnose any problems, so I was hoping that if anyone could help me out.

To keep it short, I'll bulletpoint examples:
- My emotions are unstable and I have very sudden changes in mood if something gets on my nerves (e.g. I got really angry in a phone call yesterday where my boyfriend called someone's mum hot?!)
- I feel emotionless... I don't feel happiness and I don't feel strong feelings like love, even though I am very much in love with my boyfriend. I have also lost my sex drive A LOT
- I am very affected by social media (e.g. I get jealous over people very easily, I get angry for others being in a relationship even though mine is perfect, I compare myself massively)
- I can't make friends very easily and find it forced. I can't be myself around people and act according to how I feel they are as a person e.g. if it's a girl I am usually serious and don't make jokes even though those who know me know I joke a lot.
- I therefore have very few friends and those who I do make friends with are only temporary people e.g. people who I talk to outside lecture until their friends arrive
- I used to put myself down a lot for this and self-harmed since around 15 and have been clean around 6 months.
- However I go through stages of unhappiness and then when I am happy, I am scared knowing that a stage of 'depression' will come again
- I am completely obsessed with looks. My boyfriend refuses to talk about my hair / body with me as I am that obsessed with it. I always NEED to fulfill my potential to be perfect and I think about my looks almost all the time
- Very awkward and antisocial - I don't enjoy clubbing and I rarely go out if asked (unless with people I am very comfortable with) in case I look awkward or if I feel uncomfortable


There's some examples, thanks if you bothered to read all! I have no idea whether my behaviour is normal, yet if it seems as though the symptoms indicate a mental illness, please comment and let me know...

Thank you all! :)
xx
 
Gajolene

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Hi Annie it sounds like your having some anxiety, self confidence and selfesteem related issues. Have you ever been to psychologist or therapist. Writing out everything you've written here and showing a psychologist they can offer real help that makes a difference in your daily living and in how you see yourself. They can teach you tools to cope and to build your selfesteem and selfconfidence. I'm only a member but I think you may find it really helpfull. Talking out things on here really helps as well. You will get a lot of understanding and good advice.
 
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Welcome to the forum, Annie.
I do think that seeing a doctor would help and (hopefully) getting a referral for some kind of talking therapy.
At the end of the day, I think if these things are affecting your life and well-being, then I think it's wise to reach out and get some more support.
It does sound like there are issues with your mood and your anxiety around relationships with people.
 
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