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Before posting here, of course I’ve done a little research about some of the symptoms on the internet. I found out I fit almost all of the psychological symptoms…..but can the internet be trusted? I once jokingly said to my sister that I might have depression, but she said I don’t, because people who really have depression won’t even want to get out of bed (I found out later that this only refers to people with very serious depression).

I don’t have any problem with my sleep as well as appetite, but often times I feel quite sluggish (which I blamed it on the hot weather), lazy, and nothing seems to interest or motivate me. I feel unhappy most of the time. I can’t decide or make a decision on anything, I feel hopeless and worthless most of the time because I often forget or not do anything right, and I mean VERY often (I’m not even joking, I feel like I’ve become stupid or something). For example, my mom and sister would give me simple instructions to do something, and I always seem to forget or my brain seems to automatically delete part of the instruction on its own. My mom and sister would scold me harshly every time that happens, saying I have such bad logic thinking, bad communication skills, or that I’m such an idiot, and that I couldn’t go out to work with such bad logic (I’m a recent graduate actually). I feel like I’ve really become stupid! I didn’t use to think that way, but some time during part of my teenage years I felt like I’ve become stupid...... . Whenever I got scolded, I feel even more worthless, and thought it might be better if I didn’t exist: my mom would have less of a worry, and that my existence seems only to cause trouble and worry. I often have suicidal thoughts, ever since high school actually, and also especially this year (I was quite happy when I was in college). I actually searched online for ways of suicide and their success rates.
 
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Hiya. Hiya Bees. I'm afraid no-one can diagnose on a forum of course but you certainly sound very low. I do a weekly mood test (I am diagnosed bipolar) and a lot of the things you mention are on the depression scale that I use. As I said, I can't say that is right or wrong for you but I would strongly urge you to see a doctor and write in bullet points what you have said here and tell him/her how you feel. They will take you seriously. Pills aren't the only thing that works, although that is what he will give you. But I would suggest you try to find some therapy near you so you can explore what happened to make you so bad and techniques to improve yourself.
 
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Before posting here, of course I’ve done a little research about some of the symptoms on the internet. I found out I fit almost all of the psychological symptoms…..but can the internet be trusted? I once jokingly said to my sister that I might have depression, but she said I don’t, because people who really have depression won’t even want to get out of bed (I found out later that this only refers to people with very serious depression).

I don’t have any problem with my sleep as well as appetite, but often times I feel quite sluggish (which I blamed it on the hot weather), lazy, and nothing seems to interest or motivate me. I feel unhappy most of the time. I can’t decide or make a decision on anything, I feel hopeless and worthless most of the time because I often forget or not do anything right, and I mean VERY often (I’m not even joking, I feel like I’ve become stupid or something). For example, my mom and sister would give me simple instructions to do something, and I always seem to forget or my brain seems to automatically delete part of the instruction on its own. My mom and sister would scold me harshly every time that happens, saying I have such bad logic thinking, bad communication skills, or that I’m such an idiot, and that I couldn’t go out to work with such bad logic (I’m a recent graduate actually). I feel like I’ve really become stupid! I didn’t use to think that way, but some time during part of my teenage years I felt like I’ve become stupid...... . Whenever I got scolded, I feel even more worthless, and thought it might be better if I didn’t exist: my mom would have less of a worry, and that my existence seems only to cause trouble and worry. I often have suicidal thoughts, ever since high school actually, and also especially this year (I was quite happy when I was in college). I actually searched online for ways of suicide and their success rates.
It's best to talk to your doctor about it. It sounds like depression, but it could also be another medical issue so addressing this with your doctor is important.
It seems like your family isn't acting like a good support system, you don't deserve that and you are not stupid. You are going through some sort of trouble. You could try explaining yourself more to them, of they reject it thats on them not you. Your health is very important and you should make it your first priority. You can find emotional support here.
I know some people like myself are having a hard time getting an appointment to see the doctor, so it's probably best to start trying now.
 
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Tbh I'm really afraid to mention it to my family. They'll think I'm seeking attention and just finding an excuse for my behaviour... but I'll try my best.
 
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It's a really strange feeling (I wish you guys would know what I'm talking about): I remembered I didn't use to be this dim-witted...I used to be cheerful and kind of quick-witted, but then one day everything suddenly changed.
 
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You can eat well all days and have depression, go to work and have depression, go out eith people and have depression.

But yesz there are measures of depression. Dont want to judge if u fit or not in the depression category, and how low or high u have it.

But I see u r not doing well, and u feel bad about that.

U should try to work on the things u feel bad

U have a real problem or just people wants to make u feel u have a problem ? If is the 2nd just dont bother to listen them.

Try to think clear ur problems, if u feel bad try to find ways to cope.

Get distance from the bad commnets.

Good luck.
 
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Stress and depression can actually damage your memory long term. Trust me. I have horrible short term memory. I have issues with focusing. I feel like I don’t have depression at times and then the symptoms smack me again. They come and go and that can make you feel like you’re not mentally ill.
 
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:welcome: Bees! Sorry to hear about your situation. The fact that things changed for you in your teenage years should be enough for you to visit a doctor. You don't have to tell your parents until you are ready. You deserve right treatment as soon as possible. Write down your symptoms, when they started, how they are for the time being and bring that to your doctor. 👍
 
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I think putting labels on you about how you feel...depressed anxiety BPD, bipolar etc can at times add to the difficulties you are feeling. The best form of therapy is learning to accept yourself as you are and being kind to yourself.
 
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I think putting labels on you about how you feel...depressed anxiety BPD, bipolar etc can at times add to the difficulties you are feeling. The best form of therapy is learning to accept yourself as you are and being kind to yourself.
To some degree I agree with you about that labels can feel like a stigma. Still it is the diagnose that give right to treatment.

It is important to not let a diagnose make one feel identical with the person. One is not one's diagnose. One is a person with certain problems. Those problems are put in a category and named as a diagnose. One shall not self-diagnose, but get the symptoms checked out by a doctor. If the doctor says that your problem seem to be normal teen-age problems, well then they will probably pass. If the doctor, on the other hand, says: "I think that you suffer from a depression. I will try to put you on an antidepressant first to see if the is enough. If your depression continues, I will refer you to a specialist", well, then the world will not break! Such an affirmation about something one has suspected for a long time, can be a relief. It is what it is and there is available treatment for it.

It is very important to remember that the sooner one get treatment, if there is something to treat, the more easy life become. Untreated Mental Disorders (I hate the word MI) can grow much worse. (I see the so called MI as more or less Mental Wellness, not as illness).

To be respected for who you are is always good. Most therapist, regardless of theoretical training, sees this bond between patient and therapist as crucial for becoming better.
 
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I've just found that having been on a merry go round of medications treatment plans therapy groups etc for many years that I was in danger of losing my identity. I found that the constant input of other peoples suggestions ideas and input and an overload of information was consuming me and I really struggled to remain true to myself. Also I found in some cases it really clashed with my spiritual beliefs and it was like a battle trying to do both at the same time. I think my biggest problem was going diagnosed with possible bpd. It was so uncertain and gave me no peace of mind and it still worries m not knowing for sure what's wrong. I'm sorry if that's quite negative but it's just how I feel about things.
 
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I've just found that having been on a merry go round of medications treatment plans therapy groups etc for many years that I was in danger of losing my identity. I found that the constant input of other peoples suggestions ideas and input and an overload of information was consuming me and I really struggled to remain true to myself. Also I found in some cases it really clashed with my spiritual beliefs and it was like a battle trying to do both at the same time. I think my biggest problem was going diagnosed with possible bpd. It was so uncertain and gave me no peace of mind and it still worries m not knowing for sure what's wrong. I'm sorry if that's quite negative but it's just how I feel about things.
So good that you are honest about that! Nobody says that all people belongs in the same box. We are all unique you know! ☺
 
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Well it would be a boring world if we were all the same 😊
 
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I think my biggest problem was going diagnosed with possible bpd.
"Possible bpd" do not have to be a real BPD. You can take trip to the nearest library and look for ICD 10 (the Europen version of a diagnose system) or DSM V (the American diagnose system). You can sit down and try see if you feel that the criteria fits or not.

I want to give you a link that has many suggestions for how to do "things" when problems make one overwhelmed. It can be uses for any diagnose (as far as I know). And it can be used alone. I have got many ideas from it:


Don't let anyone take your religious believes from you!

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Thank you very much for the link I will look that up. I have looked into bpd and it's like they are describing me personally so I do feel that is what is wrong with me. Just the diagnosis I received being "possible" confused me more. And I still hold strong to my religious beliefs. They keep me going 😊 thanks for your kind words :thanks:
 
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