So i just finished watching a movie that had some deep themes and elements in them. then i thought how messed up i could be. when i was like 4 or 5 i was best friends with this girl but we had a fight or something in a clubv house and never saw eachother again and then i had a rivialry with some girl i went to church with until like the 2nd grade and i never saw her again when i moved but i ran into her in 4th grade and pretended i didnt know her..when i was in 3rd grade i had a crush on this girl i really really thought was beutiful. she ended up moving away and i couldnt stop thinking about her for almost 3 years even though we talked like 5 times in total. then in 7th grade i think this girl liked me and even asked me out. i declined when i secretly have had a crush on her too. in 8th grade we kinda had a thing for eachother but not really then i met this other girl at a football game, we only hugged but i felt a connection with her but never had to guts to ask her out and she wasnt the"perfect girl" for me. fast forward to now, im in 10th grade and cant stop thinking about what could have been with all the girls that i "let go" or whatever. could this be dating back to that fight i had when i was 4 that makes me feel this way?