- May 17, 2020
I have struggled with anxiety and depression for a few years now, it started when my dad attempted suicide. I have since struggled with controlling my emotions and started to try various tablets prescribed from the doctor, I also tried online counselling and self help using silver cloud but didn't work. I feel my symptoms are a lot stronger than the standard anxiety, I can't control my anger or upset and cry over the silliest things which I don't understand why, I have smashed two phones out of anger and often feel the urge to lash out, again for no obvious reason. My partner leaves me to calm down but I get so paranoid and give myself panic attacks feeling as though he is going to leave or I will tell him I am leaving and instantly regret my decision, this is over nothing major just a small disagreement. I can do this a few times a week or my moods will switch multiple times each day. My partner is struggling to put up with my moods but when I go to the doctors they make me feel as though its normal for someone with anxiety to go through these things but I've spoken to my dad who suffers with severe mental health and he and my partner thing I have bpd. Is this normal anxiety or should I seek a second opinion from my other doctor? My symptoms are getting worse as years go by and I would like to control my behaviour and paranoia.