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Do I have GAD, its been 2 years and I still don't know whats wrong with me?

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TiredRicky

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Do I have GAD, its been 2 years and I still don't know whats wrong with me?

So I get what I call "episodes" seemingly randomly and they can last from an hour to all day. Usually the first sign of an episode is sort of a numb feeling on the top/back of my head and then it sort of grows. Sometimes it doesn't get too bad and just lasts all day and sometimes it can get real bad and I feel like I am almost paralyzed and just curl up somewhere and wait for it to subside. Sometimes I get real cold, and will have a sort of anemic brain fog and have trouble speaking clearly and forming thoughts. I have gone to the emergency room several times when this 1st started happening to me but I no longer go since they always tell me that there is nothing wrong with me (that they could find). I have talked to my regular Dr. and she told me things like quit caffeine, take my vitamins etc.. but have not been diagnosed with anything. I have not been able to work at any job as a result of this for the last 2 years and my wife is my sole means of supporting myself. I am going places less and less, sometimes I don't leave my house for days on end. I have quit attending family and social functions altogether because its embarrassing when I have an episode in public. My wife tells me that she can see physical changes in me when I am having an episode, stuff like "glazed eyes" and she sometimes tells me that I am another person altogether. I am currently not on any medications and can no longer afford to go the doctor so I am trying to help myself however I can but so far nothing seems to help. I did go through a 4 month period without any episodes recently but they came back. I get them almost daily now, sometimes I'll have a day without them but those are rare. Oh and I also have a constant ringing in my ears.

A little about myself, I am 50 years old and have had some memorable life events. I was rescued by the coast guard when I was 14 years old after I "borrrowed" my dads sailboat and it flipped over on me in the pacific ocean. When I was in my 21 I was living very close to the area where the "pepcon explosion" happened, it was the largest domestic, non-nuclear explosion in recorded history (in case you never heard of it). I was in my house at the time and I remember a loud boom all the doors and windows opening at once and me being knocked to the floor from the resulting concussion. It was the loudest noise I have ever heard in my life and I was sure it was a nuclear bomb explosion at the time, especially when I ran out of my house and saw the huge mushroom cloud in the sky.

Does anybody know what might be wrong with me?
 
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I'm not a doctor or anythihg but it does sound like anxiety attacks to me.

Do you ever struggle with memories of the 2 events that you talked about?Do they bother you in any way still?
 
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I'm not a doctor or anythihg but it does sound like anxiety attacks to me.

Do you ever struggle with memories of the 2 events that you talked about?Do they bother you in any way still?
No I don't struggle at all with those 2 events, I only mentioned them because they were the only thing that came to mind when trying to think about something traumatic from my past.

These episodes actually started right about the time my only daughter moved out of the house, could that be the reason??
 
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No I don't struggle at all with those 2 events, I only mentioned them because they were the only thing that came to mind when trying to think about something traumatic from my past.

These episodes actually started right about the time my only daughter moved out of the house, could that be the reason??
Ok,I was going to say maybe it's possible PTSD but if those events don't bother you,no flashbacks or anything,then maybe not.Or it could be possible that they did impact you more than you thought but are just now affecting you,like delayed onset PTSD or something.(again,I'm not a doctor or anything)

Ah,your only daughter moved out...yes,that very well could be the culprit.Do you worry about her often?Are you having a rough time adjusting to this major life change?
 
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Ok,I was going to say maybe it's possible PTSD but if those events don't bother you,no flashbacks or anything,then maybe not.Or it could be possible that they did impact you more than you thought but are just now affecting you,like delayed onset PTSD or something.(again,I'm not a doctor or anything)

Ah,your only daughter moved out...yes,that very well could be the culprit.Do you worry about her often?Are you having a rough time adjusting to this major life change?
When she moved out I was very worried about her, but I have gotten over it over time. At least I think I have? She lives close by and I see her pretty often.
 
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I'm thinking maybe some type of therapy might be a good idea so you can get to the root of this.Have you considered doing that?
 
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I'm thinking maybe some type of therapy might be a good idea so you can get to the root of this.Have you considered doing that?
Only if it was free, I am unemployed because of my problem.
 
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