Do I have an eating disorder

[LavenderLovegood]

Hi,

I’m starting to think I have an eating disorder, here’s why:

- It all started when I found out my private pictures were found on a porn website by someone from my hometown, police are involved and everything. Which made me very depressed, gave me low self-confidence and self-value.
- I started by cutting out snacks and more unhealthy foods.
- Jogging almost everyday, if I didn’t jog I’d walk same distance, if I don’t do both I have a bad mood.
- Counting calories.
- I started a home workout, only appr. 20 mins everyday.
- I measure my waist several times a day and keep track.
- I tried purging, it was disgusting but also I could barely induce it.

When I go get food thinking no ones there, and my classmates see me and laugh very stupidly of me (bc they find it funny somehow that I eat at that time, I think they think I eat a lot) I just pretend to laugh and make excuses like “I need to eat my food before I leave in a couple of days or “before expiry date”. Inside i’m so angry and ashamed, they’re japanese, so they’re small and all super thin and always say they got fat and act super disappointed over it, when irl they only gained a small amount in the course of 1 month or more.

I don’t wanna tell anyone, so this seemed like a safe place to talk about it. Thanks for reading my long explanation.

 

[Faith198]

I can’t diagnose you but yes, I would definitely talk to someone about this. I’m so sorry you found private pictures of yourself on the web, I can’t even imagine how that feels. Using laxatives to get rid of weight is going to extreme measures. It sounds like you are obsessing on the numbers and things. To me that sounds like the start of an eating disorder. I wish you the best. Again I’m really sorry for all that has happened to you.

 

[Nukelavee]

It sounds likje it to me, for what thats worth.

You should talk to a doctor about this.

 

[JessisMe]

Hi,

I’m starting to think I have an eating disorder, here’s why:

- It all started when I found out my private pictures were found on a porn website by someone from my hometown, police are involved and everything. Which made me very depressed, gave me low self-confidence and self-value.
- I started by cutting out snacks and more unhealthy foods.
- Jogging almost everyday, if I didn’t jog I’d walk same distance, if I don’t do both I have a bad mood.
- Counting calories.
- I started a home workout, only appr. 20 mins everyday.
- I measure my waist several times a day and keep track.
- I tried purging, it was disgusting but also I could barely induce it.

When I go get food thinking no ones there, and my classmates see me and laugh very stupidly of me (bc they find it funny somehow that I eat at that time, I think they think I eat a lot) I just pretend to laugh and make excuses like “I need to eat my food before I leave in a couple of days or “before expiry date”. Inside i’m so angry and ashamed, they’re japanese, so they’re small and all super thin and always say they got fat and act super disappointed over it, when irl they only gained a small amount in the course of 1 month or more.

I don’t wanna tell anyone, so this seemed like a safe place to talk about it. Thanks for reading my long explanation.

yes it sure sounds like it. would be good to check in with a doctor about it before it becomes out of control...