- Jan 31, 2020
Divorced company folded 3 years ago same time. My ex husband and I talk on the phone different states. I can only receive a small amount of government aid. I’m socially retarded now not able to budge. Lost touch in the past 11 years new state no contacts private marriage with anyone I know elsewhere. They moved on won’t talk on the phone because they’re busy and really I’m scared to reach out to people. Recently quit alcohol that I’ve been escaping through because it makes me Manic. So 7 days sober today need to attend AA but socially confused and scared to budge. I space out every time I want to head out like blank out in fear. I’m nervous to be in a closed setting of strangers after an intimate marriage strangers won’t reach out to me in AA I just know it and if they do I’ll shutter. So sensitive ugh how yo get stronger don’t know.