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Distinguishing depression from bipolar

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Just_survival

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So I’ve been suffering depression about 5 years now. I’ve had ups and downs, been on and off anti depressants... but few times I’ve stopped and wondered do I infact have bipolar. A relative also questioned me about it because of my impulsive nature.

But more than that, I feel so drained now. I feel like life is always difficult for the many reasons I won’t list and then I’ll get moments where I get a million ideas of how to better things. So it’ll be me looking for a new job or course. Or planning how I can lose weight. And it’s with so much energy and my brain is racing and hopeful... but then the pattern is that High enthusiasm is short lived. I come crashing down soon after thinking why did I think like that, and then just telling myself to stop aiming higher because of my illness and my situation (kinda stuck). I can’t do much , but then my moment of feeling I can do everything comes with me thinking of different solutions and ways.

But it’s just exhausting. Now that I’m more aware of it I just hate the up and down. And when I’m down I’m really down, where i don’t feel there’s any solution and don’t want to continue.

It feels like where or how am I meant to live like this. It’s been 5 years of trying - going between feeling like I can do and change things but then my lows where reality hits and it’s just my life is a limitation. I just Want to be steady, but it seems that’s impossible with my back and forth!

Are these patterns of behaviour any that you identify with suffering with bipolar?

Ps im Sure there will be one or two who tell me this isn’t the place for a diagnosis. I know that. And I will speak to a doc (possibly). I’m just asking for your experiences and if they measure up similarly to mine.

Thank you for reading.
 
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Hello!
Hope you are feeling better now.
I went through your same situation a while ago.
I gathered things gathered to do things at home with a lot of enthusiasm and everything was ready but at the very same moment to start the task, I got a sudden attack of depression that I could accomplish nothing and this was more depressive.
These cycles started happening way more frequent and made me feel that I was going crazy.
Dr. said that I was "rapid cycling" , a characteristic of Bi Polar Disorder.
Please check with your doctor soon and tell him everything you are feeling before you escalate into something more serious.
 
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Hello!
Hope you are feeling better now.
I went through your same situation a while ago.
I gathered things gathered to do things at home with a lot of enthusiasm and everything was ready but at the very same moment to start the task, I got a sudden attack of depression that I could accomplish nothing and this was more depressive.
These cycles started happening way more frequent and made me feel that I was going crazy.
Dr. said that I was "rapid cycling" , a characteristic of Bi Polar Disorder.
Please check with your doctor soon and tell him everything you are feeling before you escalate into something more serious.
Thank you so much for your reply :)
 
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I can relate to what you're going through, but I have not been officially diagnosed with bipolar, so I'm more just following this thread.

a little bump!
 
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I used to be diagnosed with just depression when I was a teenager. But after I got into a fight with a family member and was hospitalized I was diagnosed with bipolar. My most problematic manic symptoms are spending too much money or having racing thoughts. My most problematic depressive symptoms are oversleeping (hypersomnia and fatigue when I am awake. I also get negative thoughts of jealousy or despair.
 
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Hi, i am new to this forum and also suffer from Bipolar. I feel the same, overspending, irritation, sleeping too much in depression and alot of rumination. I feel sick with it all right now, its really hit hard this time. Can i ask what mood you have at the moment? hope you are ok x
 
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Hi, i am new to this forum and also suffer from Bipolar. I feel the same, overspending, irritation, sleeping too much in depression and a lot of rumination.
Hello, i agree rumination is very self destructive and it is a hard cycle to break out of :(
 
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Its a nightmare, i have about ten a year now, didnt have so many before i started on lamictal, and everyone lasts for weeks and everytime its over i see how i over reacted but as soon as a new one pops up i feel it all again. Right now im obsessing over a text message i sent when manic and drunk, im very ashamed over it and i feel like the worst person in the world, gut wrenching guilt and dont know why i am like this at times, mania for me always leads to guilt, i hate bipolar 😬
 
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actually, to clarify, I've been diagnosed with "unspecified bipolar". Sorry. But the definition I read is that it is not bipolar but still has "clinically significant abnormal mood elevation." NAMI

question folks! rumination and racing thoughts are two different things right? I believe i mostly suffer from the rumination (obsessive thoughts, right? thinking things over and over or say, getting music stuck on repeat). Racing thoughts I may have experienced at a time, but not typical...oh wait! Google search tells me that these things are more similar than i thought and that the music stuck on repeat would seem to be part of a racing thought. yes??

edit: unfortunately, the answer to that doesn't help the OP's question is it depression or bipolar because both can cause racing thoughts or rumination. Right? (both have an element of anxiety???)
 
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Agreed, but back to the question sorry, i think with me what my bipolar fæ is periods of depression that can last a few months and periods of feeling normal then feeling very up and confident full of energy and feeling the life of the party, carefree, i always drop low when thats done. But there us no fixed pattern and everyones is different, hope you have a good day today x
 
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