
Sophie
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I have just been diagnosed with Clinical Depression and Dissociative Identity Disorder.I have been depressed since September , but December it got a lot worse .I have been doing and saying things that I don't remember .I think before the diagnosis , my husband thought that I was lying .I have also become very paranoid .A week ago we were going out for the night .Before this I had planed to make the night as normal as possible , as I knew that when we got back I was going to end my life .When we got home my husband took the dogs out , I then took 25 Valium and 25 sleeping pills .I told my husband to go to bed,and I would join him when the sleeping pill kicked in .Unfortunately my husband came into the room where I was , and found me slumped .So I failed ,I ended up in hospital , at one stage they said that I was in a very bad way and in a coma .
A few nights after this I went to bed .I have no memory off what happened .My husband said that he didn't want to sleep with me , he had blocked the door to stop me getting in to him . I smashed the glass pane in the door , then climbed through , then collapsed and was unconscious .I was taken to hospital again , they put restraints on me , as I was abusive .I was then taken to a secure Psychiatric hospital .I was still abusive , but calmed down and was crying .I saw the Psychiatrist and told her how I was feeling , and that I wanted to die .She wanted to keep me in , we live in Spain and I don't speak much Spanish .My husband explained this to her , he said that he would keep all my medication , and that he had cut his hours at work .The Psychiatrist made this diagnosis , she has changed my medication .I am due to see a Psychiatrist this week . I don't feel any better , I still want to end my life .I have also started cutting myself .My life at the moment is terrible .My one regret is that my husband who I love dearly came into the room when he did .
Sophie
A few nights after this I went to bed .I have no memory off what happened .My husband said that he didn't want to sleep with me , he had blocked the door to stop me getting in to him . I smashed the glass pane in the door , then climbed through , then collapsed and was unconscious .I was taken to hospital again , they put restraints on me , as I was abusive .I was then taken to a secure Psychiatric hospital .I was still abusive , but calmed down and was crying .I saw the Psychiatrist and told her how I was feeling , and that I wanted to die .She wanted to keep me in , we live in Spain and I don't speak much Spanish .My husband explained this to her , he said that he would keep all my medication , and that he had cut his hours at work .The Psychiatrist made this diagnosis , she has changed my medication .I am due to see a Psychiatrist this week . I don't feel any better , I still want to end my life .I have also started cutting myself .My life at the moment is terrible .My one regret is that my husband who I love dearly came into the room when he did .
Sophie