- Feb 6, 2015
I feel like my insides don't match my outside. I can't seem to find it within myself to express when I'm feeling stressed or sad or any kind of negative emotion on my face like I'm wearing a blank mask all the time. A huge part is never wanting to be a burden because I'm so terrified to be thrown away and that if I'm no trouble maybe I won't. And I get jealous/ angry ( of course I can't seem to express this either but my mind is going crazy with thoughts) when people show concern for others who express negative emotions over minor things. It makes me feel so insignificant and worthless like I'm not worth concern as much as someone else. Then I feel bad because it sounds like I'm trivialising others feelings and the only way I can deal with this is punishing my body.