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Lovelyandstrangethings

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Hey. Basically I've fucked up so much �� I have DID which is dissoicative identity disorder and I use different identitys but one of the identitys I had a baby (although I dont) its just what I thought and hear voices about. I was very suicidal so the service (not on fb or on here) conctated the police they have just phoned me and It was a policeman asking me if I was using this identity at first I said no as I'm scared but then he said its very important I tell him otherwise he will come round and seize my phone and then I put the phone down as thats all I want to say but since they have phoned a few more times so I dont know if they are on there way round now. fuck fuck fuck �� why cant I stop it "the identitys"?! I cannot fucking stop them! They have been in touch with my mum aswell but my mum and all my family are in a hospice atm (my auntie has been taken to a hospice today). She has cancer. My heart feels like its stopped. Please dont judge ���� The police have just been round aswell and fucked off, asking me not to worry these services and waste there time. Ive just had a big cry and harmed myself. I feel absoloute shit with everything thats going on ����
 
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Hello there, that's really distressing, I'm sorry that you have harmed yourself.

I guess the police thought that there was a real baby involved so they had to check to be sure, and DID is not something they really know anything about. You aren't a criminal at all...but as MH support and services are so rubbish, places like MH services bin all sorts of stuff they should deal with themselves onto the police as they are obliged to turn up.

It's a real mess.

You sound really unwell, if you have been in touch with your crisis team and they have fobbed it all off to the police then that is disgraceful.

How do you feel about calling 999 and telling them you have DID and are harming, and that you need medical help NOT the police
I'm concerned that you stay safe, I'm so sorry about your auntie xxxx
 
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Hi,
Are you allocated a CPN, can you phone them on Monday. Please keep safe. Your poorly and can't help the things you've been doing.
The police should have helped you. I'm so very sorry you were treated this way.
Or go to A/E if you can, tell them how poorly you feel.
We're here for you.
Take care
 
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Hi you two thanks for being so understanding. I have got a CPN but she is new and has just gone on holiday (I know!) I could phone them on Monday and speak to someone else but I dont know what to say I dont think they will think I am "unwell". I know the police should of been a help, evan if they had called up my mental health team to say I need to be seen but nope. The police should know aswell I have been through past trauma which I have been told that I make these "identitys" to deal with and protect myself. I feel hopeless going to A&E because they just send you home evan more distressed. I feel if I tell them I feel poorly that they will laugh in my face.
 
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Hey, glad you are ok.

Would you be able to get an urgent GP appointment on Monday.. take a copy of this thread with you or show it and tell GP you need urgent support as switching like this is causing serious problems and you are not safe.

And maybe email the team urgently so they get it for Monday.

The police should know, you are right, there should be a flag next to your name(s) so that they know you all will be distressed and confused and possibly different in manner to how they last spoke to you.

Crap I know. :hug1:
 
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I dont know, do you think I should? I dont know myself if I am "mentally ill" or not some people are saying I am and then others are saying I'm not. I'm confused.

I live in supported accomodation and my support worker text me not long ago and asked how I was doing I said "I'm feeling okay Evan though my friends say that I should be receving mental health support and that I sound "unwell" -I cant help what I do, I think Its DID dissociative identity disorder but obiously the police dont know much about DID its a way of dealing with and protecting myself from trauma" her reply was " thing is Steph mental health support isn't every week it's every couple of months an you where seeing Rhiannona every month (that was my old cpn) so we need to get on to you seeing some one else an I understand what you have been through but your not in any danger or trauma so the things that you are putting on the internet are making people on there belivie that you are in danger an that's why the police are involved as you have done this before an the police told me there are a lot off police dealing with it" she says that evan though I am cutting and like you said switching like this is causing serious problems, hearing voices too and seeing things, fluctuating mood ect and she says Im not in any danger?!
 
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I dont know what to reply to my support worker
 
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Does my support worker just dosent understand either that I still am going through trauma it carries on forever after a traumatic events that I am trying to protect myself and this is my way of doing that
 
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I have a friend , who lives a long way away who is DID, and she has talked a lot to me about it.
I understand what you are saying about it is a protection after very traumatic events. It is not something that you can just "stop" doing, as you rightly say. You are not a criminal either. It is very complicated DID She should at least realise this.

I think more support if you can get it might be a good idea. Do you have any kind of pdoc at all or therapist that you can contact directly? Maybe send them a copy of this thread and let them understand the situation a bit better?

Sending best wishes to you
 
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When I was younger I thought I had DID. I have never met someone with DID in person. I find it to be a very interesting subject. I didn't know that people with DID were aware of other their other personalities. I do find it very interesting that in the Uk people with severe mental illness often only have therapy every few months. I was seeing my therapist every 2 weeks before I started assertive community treatment. In theory now I should be seeing my therapist about once a week for an hour or so but I have only spent about 20 minutes with her in the last 3 months. I think 1 on 1 therapy is essential to our mental health. I would recommend getting some sort of therapy (public or private)
 
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Have you officially been diagnosed with DID?Just curious because you said you 'think' that's what it is.
 
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