
Prince Buster
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I have not been that fond of it the last few years and things are not so good at this time of year in my family.
My mum's father and brother both died close to Christmas and she always feels low at this time of year (she is bi-polar) and then my uncle left my aunt on Boxing day three years ago so the last couple have been dreadful.
Last year I pretty much opted out of it by working the whole lot but found I just spent a lot of time at home on myself so this year decided as I had time I would try and have a proper Christmas.
I ended up at my parents from the 22nd and was looking forward to it having bought nice gifts for everybody that I thought they would appreciate.
By Christmas Eve I was in a shocking state and spent the day in bed crying. I had nothing to do on the night and got very low seeing everybody out having fun as I took my sister to her boyfriend's house.
The actual day was OK although I found myself with little to do and got even more upset when my mum asked if being with her made me depressed.
I could not sleep very well last night and have been up since before 6am today - very unusual for me.
When I got home tonight (I had to leave earlier than I had intended to as I just needed to be home) I discovered a letter from work telling me my sick pay stops next week.
Sometimes I just feel like the whole world is ganging up on me. Apologies for the rambling nature of this post but I just needed to get it out. And I have had half a glass of wine.
My mum's father and brother both died close to Christmas and she always feels low at this time of year (she is bi-polar) and then my uncle left my aunt on Boxing day three years ago so the last couple have been dreadful.
Last year I pretty much opted out of it by working the whole lot but found I just spent a lot of time at home on myself so this year decided as I had time I would try and have a proper Christmas.
I ended up at my parents from the 22nd and was looking forward to it having bought nice gifts for everybody that I thought they would appreciate.
By Christmas Eve I was in a shocking state and spent the day in bed crying. I had nothing to do on the night and got very low seeing everybody out having fun as I took my sister to her boyfriend's house.
The actual day was OK although I found myself with little to do and got even more upset when my mum asked if being with her made me depressed.
I could not sleep very well last night and have been up since before 6am today - very unusual for me.
When I got home tonight (I had to leave earlier than I had intended to as I just needed to be home) I discovered a letter from work telling me my sick pay stops next week.
Sometimes I just feel like the whole world is ganging up on me. Apologies for the rambling nature of this post but I just needed to get it out. And I have had half a glass of wine.