snowflakes1984
New member
Well, I'm new to this site, and was so excited to find it! I have been searching, and searching for a support group/forum for Conversion Disorder. I was diagnosed in January of 2008, and my life has been a major struggle since then!
I'm 25 years old, married, and have been dealing with depression, OCD, anxiety, PTSD, previous eating disorder issues, borderline personality disorder, and self injury since I was in middle school. I have been in the hospital multiple times, and attempted suicide multiple times as well. Since being diagnosed with Conversion Disorder I have been in the hospital 4 or 5 times. It's been so hard to deal with.
The symptom of CD that I suffer from is the non-epileptic seizures. I have 4 - 5 a week, and have no idea when they are going to hit. I have broken bones, received concussions, and had multiples bruises from the falls. I cannot work because of them, am not suppose to drive, am afraid to be in public for long periods of time, won't exercise, or take my dog for walks away from my home, for fear I will have a seizure and not be found (we live out of town). My life has been affected by this illness in so many ways. I hate it. I am on Social Security disability. I see my therapist twice a week, and my psychiatrist once a month. I'm taking multiple medications. But nothing we have done, or tried has been seeming to help.
I don't have much support from my parents, or siblings over this, and that has made it that much harder. And to top it off, my mother is a damn psychologist.
I am so scared that the rest of my life is going to be like this. Trapped in my home, trapped in this illness, not being able to move forward. Always afraid a seizure will happen. Right now, instead of being happy and in the Christmas spirit my depression in worsening, and I find myself crying every few minutes. The sadness is overwhelming. It just feels so overwhelming, and hopeless. That's all I can write, right now, since I'm crying again. Thanks for listening.
I'm 25 years old, married, and have been dealing with depression, OCD, anxiety, PTSD, previous eating disorder issues, borderline personality disorder, and self injury since I was in middle school. I have been in the hospital multiple times, and attempted suicide multiple times as well. Since being diagnosed with Conversion Disorder I have been in the hospital 4 or 5 times. It's been so hard to deal with.
The symptom of CD that I suffer from is the non-epileptic seizures. I have 4 - 5 a week, and have no idea when they are going to hit. I have broken bones, received concussions, and had multiples bruises from the falls. I cannot work because of them, am not suppose to drive, am afraid to be in public for long periods of time, won't exercise, or take my dog for walks away from my home, for fear I will have a seizure and not be found (we live out of town). My life has been affected by this illness in so many ways. I hate it. I am on Social Security disability. I see my therapist twice a week, and my psychiatrist once a month. I'm taking multiple medications. But nothing we have done, or tried has been seeming to help.
I don't have much support from my parents, or siblings over this, and that has made it that much harder. And to top it off, my mother is a damn psychologist.
I am so scared that the rest of my life is going to be like this. Trapped in my home, trapped in this illness, not being able to move forward. Always afraid a seizure will happen. Right now, instead of being happy and in the Christmas spirit my depression in worsening, and I find myself crying every few minutes. The sadness is overwhelming. It just feels so overwhelming, and hopeless. That's all I can write, right now, since I'm crying again. Thanks for listening.