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Svenhassel
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- Sep 13, 2009
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Hi people. Found this forum the other night and spent quite a while poring over the posts and reading everybody's stories. There are some facinating tales on here and some that sound quite similar to my own.
I've had it up to here with my illness. my main issue is an ongoing lack of emotion, like everything in my head has been flattened to the point where I can remember (some) incidents but am unable to recall the pleasurable emotions associated with them. I feel joyless and anxious, I am constantly focussed on my illness and I suffer almost constant headaches and neck/shoulder pain. I am married with a teenage daughter and this is really affecting my life in a detremental way as I hardly ever leave the house, I am indecisive and can't make decisions about what to do to change my life for the better...so i do nothing
Does this sound familiar to anybody?
I seem to suffer from some sort of low level mental confusion whereby, my memory is appalling (can't remember names to save my life) my concentration levels are almost non-existent and I'm drinking way too much at night,just so I can feel...not better, just DIFFERENT
does anyone else do this?
I have a full time, responsible job where I work from home mainly so I'm able to hide the symptoms when they are at their worst. I'm only in the office for 4 hours a week and I think, even for that short period of time, people are beginning to notice things aren't right. I get behind with paperwork and get confused as to what needs doing, than I don't sleep, worrying about pointless work related things and, well you get the picture, it just goes round and round and round.
I am determined to get my life on track and want to break out of my negative thought patterns and take on the world again.
The reason for this post is twofold:
Firstly, I would love to hear from anybody who has experienced similiar feelings of flatness/lack of concentration/motivation/engagement and has found any way at all of addressing these issues...I am willing to try anything to get out of this situation.
Secondly, I would love to use my interaction on this forum as motivation to get my life back on track and, hopefully, help others do the same. I am, in spite of everything, a positive person. I've become bogged down in negativity and constantly thinking about my illness and I don't want to do this any more...I deserve happiness. We all deserve happiness
Let's look at positive things and try and motivate each other.
Any advice anyone can give me on addressing my issues would be most gratefully received. I want my life back!
I've had it up to here with my illness. my main issue is an ongoing lack of emotion, like everything in my head has been flattened to the point where I can remember (some) incidents but am unable to recall the pleasurable emotions associated with them. I feel joyless and anxious, I am constantly focussed on my illness and I suffer almost constant headaches and neck/shoulder pain. I am married with a teenage daughter and this is really affecting my life in a detremental way as I hardly ever leave the house, I am indecisive and can't make decisions about what to do to change my life for the better...so i do nothing

I seem to suffer from some sort of low level mental confusion whereby, my memory is appalling (can't remember names to save my life) my concentration levels are almost non-existent and I'm drinking way too much at night,just so I can feel...not better, just DIFFERENT

I have a full time, responsible job where I work from home mainly so I'm able to hide the symptoms when they are at their worst. I'm only in the office for 4 hours a week and I think, even for that short period of time, people are beginning to notice things aren't right. I get behind with paperwork and get confused as to what needs doing, than I don't sleep, worrying about pointless work related things and, well you get the picture, it just goes round and round and round.
I am determined to get my life on track and want to break out of my negative thought patterns and take on the world again.
The reason for this post is twofold:
Firstly, I would love to hear from anybody who has experienced similiar feelings of flatness/lack of concentration/motivation/engagement and has found any way at all of addressing these issues...I am willing to try anything to get out of this situation.
Secondly, I would love to use my interaction on this forum as motivation to get my life back on track and, hopefully, help others do the same. I am, in spite of everything, a positive person. I've become bogged down in negativity and constantly thinking about my illness and I don't want to do this any more...I deserve happiness. We all deserve happiness

Let's look at positive things and try and motivate each other.
Any advice anyone can give me on addressing my issues would be most gratefully received. I want my life back!