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I know this is a disorder in itself but I thought I would post here as I'm pretty sure it relates to my OCD. I literally cannot stop engaging in dermatillomania. This is become a huge problem because I suddenly developed acne 2 years ago at the age of 20.

I've always had pretty clear skin but for some reason I started getting the odd blind pimple. The problem was I kept squeezing and picking at them until they were a mess. Then I started getting patches of these really tiny pin sized spots on my face which I can't stop squeezing.

My face is a mess now, I have a load of hyper pigmentation (brown scarring) and scabs on my face, as well as spots. It's making me really insecure. I even seem to pick at things absent mindedly like I'll be sat there with my hands going across my face feeling everything. I don't know what to do because I feel like I need to do it to calm me down (It's soothing). Also its like my brain tells me it will go quicker if I pick at it, which obviously isn't true. I'm pretty sure I'm making the acne worse by touching my face aswell.

I even bought these acne tools to use, but I have now thrown them away because it wasn't healthy. Anyone else experienced this? How do I stop?
 
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You need to stop picking
cleanse tone moisturiser
healthy diet
exercise
no stress
 
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yeah I have a whole skin care routine that I'm pretty much sure would actually be helpful if I kept my hands off my face. It's just really hard to stop though especially when I'm stressed as I no longer see the point in caring about it. I find wearing gloves helps but I obviously can't wear them all the time.

I also try to cover it up with make up but that's making my acne worse as I use so much. I just feel stuck :/
 
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There’s a lot of things in life that are habit-forming. I remember as young teenager I would do the same. The only thing that help me get over the stage was eating better I found eating better helped my skin. Do you go to therapy?
 
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There’s a lot of things in life that are habit-forming. I remember as young teenager I would do the same. The only thing that help me get over the stage was eating better I found eating better helped my skin. Do you go to therapy?
No I don't go to therapy, I was refereed but then lock down happened and it never happened.
 
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You should try to reach out, even if you just find help on the internet. It’s starting something ya know. I found medication and counseling to help my self esteem when I felt insecure. I have picked my face and still do but I manage better. I’m also older now and break out less. Just try to avoid scarring.
 
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You should try to reach out, even if you just find help on the internet. It’s starting something ya know. I found medication and counseling to help my self esteem when I felt insecure. I have picked my face and still do but I manage better. I’m also older now and break out less. Just try to avoid scarring.
yes, there is a self referral online I can do so I don't even have to go to the doctors. So I might do that. Luckily I don't scar easy and when I do it fades relatively quickly.
 
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yes, there is a self referral online I can do so I don't even have to go to the doctors. So I might do that. Luckily I don't scar easy and when I do it fades relatively quickly.
That’s good! Tell us how it goes. Take a look around the forum to I see you’ve been posting 😀
 
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I've been doing this for 30 years. I pick at my lips. I mostly do it while actually doing something else like reading or watching TV.
I don't give a fuck anymore that my lips always look cracked and that they're scarred. I always have lip balm on when I go outside so it looks slightly better.
I'm sorry you're dealing with this. It's a very difficult thing to stop.
 
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It's called bfrb. Body focused repetitive behavior. It's in the dsm-5 in the ocd section but for me personally I feel it's more an impulse control disorder thingy.
 
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I've been doing this for 30 years. I pick at my lips. I mostly do it while actually doing something else like reading or watching TV.
I don't give a fuck anymore that my lips always look cracked and that they're scarred. I always have lip balm on when I go outside so it looks slightly better.
I'm sorry you're dealing with this. It's a very difficult thing to stop.
Yeah I was even doing it while reading these replies. So annoying.
 
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A therapist from a long time ago once told me you get rid of excess energy through your fingertips and that the picking might be a way of relieving stress. I found that a very plausible explanation.
 
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A therapist from a long time ago once told me you get rid of excess energy through your fingertips and that the picking might be a way of relieving stress. I found that a very plausible explanation.
Yeah that sounds likely. I'm a very fidgety person too. Always have been.
 
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One thing that doesn’t help is my family keep pointing it out saying it looks horrible and to stop. It makes me more stressed and then I end up doing it more. How can I explain to them I can’t help it?
 
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