
Clarityofthought
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i took my last anti-depressant two days ago. i'd got the dose down slowly and was at 12.5 mg (sertraline) for two weeks. i had my hair done and was feeling great. but then succumbed to taking drugs - bad mistake and i'm very ashemd. picked myself up and like i say stopped taking a-d's cos i thought i could handle it. well the last two days i feel ILL, very depressed, aching, digestive disturbances, outlook has gone rapidly down-hill, hate myself, how i look, overeating and putting on 1lb every two days! i'm 14st12 now the worst i've ever been! but i CANNOT go back to taking them. not an option. i think clearer without them - i've been able to do things like cleaning / cooking / going for a walk etc. but i have also been self-harming again. i just hate myself so much.
my husband is trying to be positive for me. he says feeling this bad will surely spur me into really sorting things - a diet if i want and working out. but i can't see how to!! i tried cutting out sugar yesterday and ended up eating half a chocolate cake and four white bread sandwiches! this kinda stuff makes me ill - i have bad eczema i think is food related. i'd tried all day to eat healthily - more salad and veg etx but i don't think fruit and salad or milk or eggs or yoghurt agrees with me and like i say i had bad diarrhoea. i CAN'T eat healthily!!! literally can't.
we have got to find a new house cos our landlord is selling.
husband is doing overtime to meet the extra costs.
i'm shattered!!! always want to sleep. no time for myself. ache SO MUCH!
i feel huge when i move - even going up the stairs.... i'm tired tired tired of living like this!!!!!
help

ws
my husband is trying to be positive for me. he says feeling this bad will surely spur me into really sorting things - a diet if i want and working out. but i can't see how to!! i tried cutting out sugar yesterday and ended up eating half a chocolate cake and four white bread sandwiches! this kinda stuff makes me ill - i have bad eczema i think is food related. i'd tried all day to eat healthily - more salad and veg etx but i don't think fruit and salad or milk or eggs or yoghurt agrees with me and like i say i had bad diarrhoea. i CAN'T eat healthily!!! literally can't.
we have got to find a new house cos our landlord is selling.
husband is doing overtime to meet the extra costs.
i'm shattered!!! always want to sleep. no time for myself. ache SO MUCH!
i feel huge when i move - even going up the stairs.... i'm tired tired tired of living like this!!!!!
help

ws