Depression or stress?

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For the past six months I've noticed that something isn't what it used to be. I have poor energy and motivation, I have trouble with reading and I can't concentrate on anything anymore. Since I was little I've loved writing stories but now I don't feel like doing it. I get bored when I have typed a few words. I don't get the same pleasure from it anymore. I follow many Youtubers but I don't feel like watching their videoes, not even short ones. They used to make me laugh but now they don't. It's like I force myself to watch just one of them. I've always loved horseback riding, but now I think it's just difficult and less funny. I don't understand what's going on. I've been dealing with this in six months and it doesn't get better. I don't even feel like doing these things on holidays. But the weirdest part of this is that I don't feel sad -- at least not all the time. I'm seriously getting tired of this, and sometimes I just cry because of it. My parents don't understand me and they won't support me. They just say something like "It gets better" or "Try again" and "There's nothing wrong with you. It's just because of your autism" (Yes, I have autism)
I don't know what to do and I don't have any friends. Sorry for bad English.
 
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I can't advise at the moment but wanted to say that your English is pretty good :) x
 
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My concentration and focus is really bad. I wake up in the middle of the night like I always do, and then I fell off my bad. First time that ever had happened to me :low:
 
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Hope you're feeling better TheGagagirl1234.
Have you seen a GP about how you've been feeling? Or talking to anyone else apart from your family about how you've been feeling?
 
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What you are describing is what depression is all about. I experienced it as being in a house where all the doors closed one by one and I couldn't get pleasure from anything. I didn't feel sad either. It lasted for about ten years and then I was put on a medication that opened the windows again. Depression is a terrible thing to bear, like all mental illnesses.
 
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Hope you're feeling better TheGagagirl1234.
Have you seen a GP about how you've been feeling? Or talking to anyone else apart from your family about how you've been feeling?
I've talked with my mother about this earlier today, and she said that it is important that I'm going to a psychologist before I go to the doctor. It was like she already knew about the symptoms of depression. I really hope it isn't depression.
 
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Hey Gagagirl, it does sound like depression and not something you could put down to your Autism. I used to love writing too but haven't in ages for the same reasons you describe. If it is depression, there is help out there :hug:
 
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Those are most of the things I've felt, was big on playing tennis but I just haven't even made the effort for about 8 months now, I hope you get the help you so deservedly should have.
People don't understand it seems and it's not easy to cope with until you start to admit what you may have, but it takes a lot of effort, but it's great that you're trying :) hope all goes well for you.
 
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Hey Gagagirl, it does sound like depression and not something you could put down to your Autism. I used to love writing too but haven't in ages for the same reasons you describe. If it is depression, there is help out there :hug:
Yesterday I began to cry just because my mother asked me to clean dishes. I've never done that before, and my motivation gets worse. Everyday I feel like calling in sick, but I know I have to get up and go to work. That isn't normal, right?
 
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I know money is needed and hard to come by, but maybe having a few weeks off to maybe rest and relax might just help? I'm not good with advice, but you need to put your health first before anything. Have a word with your GP and see what they say maybe? I'd love to be more of a help :'( so sorry. Take care of yourself.
 
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I know money is needed and hard to come by, but maybe having a few weeks off to maybe rest and relax might just help? I'm not good with advice, but you need to put your health first before anything. Have a word with your GP and see what they say maybe? I'd love to be more of a help :'( so sorry. Take care of yourself.
I don't know if that would work. I've tried to go back to my 'old' hobbies on holidays, but it's like I can't go on with them when I begin, not even on days where I haven't done anything. I get bored and I don't have motivation to keep trying.
 
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Yesterday I began to cry just because my mother asked me to clean dishes. I've never done that before, and my motivation gets worse. Everyday I feel like calling in sick, but I know I have to get up and go to work. That isn't normal, right?
What type of work do you do? There have been moments at work where I've sat and cried because of being so overwhelmed. Thankfully, I have my own office so nobody has been any the wiser! Still being motivated enough not to call in sick and still going to work is a positive though, even if it feels like a struggle to be bothered in the first place.
 
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What type of work do you do? There have been moments at work where I've sat and cried because of being so overwhelmed. Thankfully, I have my own office so nobody has been any the wiser! Still being motivated enough not to call in sick and still going to work is a positive though, even if it feels like a struggle to be bothered in the first place.
It's actually not 'real' work.. I'm currently living in college where I learn how to go to work, etc. I'm working with computers and different programs. But it's so hard to concentrate on something. I always end up surfing the web instead.
 
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It's actually not 'real' work.. I'm currently living in college where I learn how to go to work, etc. I'm working with computers and different programs. But it's so hard to concentrate on something. I always end up surfing the web instead.
A lack of concentration is a key sign of depression in many people. Do you enjoy the course or do you find it boring? The internet tends to be more interesting than most things so can't blame you for surfing the web :D
 
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A lack of concentration is a key sign of depression in many people. Do you enjoy the course or do you find it boring? The internet tends to be more interesting than most things so can't blame you for surfing the web :D
I mostly enjoy it, but sometimes I find it boring, especially if I'm really tired. It depends on what I'm working with and how tired I am.
 

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