- Mar 29, 2020
- United states
I'm feeling the best I've felt in decades for the most part, but I'm having what kind of feels like a traumatic experience or something. My mood drops to rock bottom in a couple seconds for a minute or two and I have severe suicidal urges. Then my mood goes up a fair amount over a few minutes and then slowly creeps back to normal after around an hour or two. I should probably make a mood chart of it, but I'm not in a great mood right now. I guess I should call my psychologist and psychiatrist tomorrow. It has gotten progressively worse and might be triggered by even the smallest amount of stress some times. I had some repressed memories for around twenty years about being molested, they came back as nightmares when I took escitalopram. I haven't had any very recent medication changes. Does anyone have any insight or had similar experiences? I think it's more intense and noticeable than it used to be because my body was so used to both of those things basically being constant. I hope I don't have to be hospitalized especially because of the current pandemic. I won't be alone for the next few days so I should be safe for a while.