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dewey
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Haven't felt properly depressed for a solid two weeks, then all of a sudden this week it hit.
I've taken my anti depressant, had a shower, been for a walk, all the stuff that's meant to help.
Sad truth is I feel very alone I wish I had a partner and I wish all those times people came onto me I had been more forthcoming because if I had, now I wouldn't be in this lonely mess. I do it to myself. I really do. By shutting people out and never trusting anyone to date me, I make my life worse. But there's reasons why I don't trust to date.
I just thought I would write on here because I'm living in a flat on my own and I can't go to work, I can't see anyone. It all feels so desperately lonely. I wish I had one person to make me feel less alone, I have friends on this forum and also in real life, but I can't feel anything right now. All I can feel is my own purposelessness and I keep thinking about death.
Sorry to be so heavy. I am just feeling this way. Nothing is really working to snap me out of it.
I've taken my anti depressant, had a shower, been for a walk, all the stuff that's meant to help.
Sad truth is I feel very alone I wish I had a partner and I wish all those times people came onto me I had been more forthcoming because if I had, now I wouldn't be in this lonely mess. I do it to myself. I really do. By shutting people out and never trusting anyone to date me, I make my life worse. But there's reasons why I don't trust to date.
I just thought I would write on here because I'm living in a flat on my own and I can't go to work, I can't see anyone. It all feels so desperately lonely. I wish I had one person to make me feel less alone, I have friends on this forum and also in real life, but I can't feel anything right now. All I can feel is my own purposelessness and I keep thinking about death.
Sorry to be so heavy. I am just feeling this way. Nothing is really working to snap me out of it.