Depression hitting hard again.. violent ex

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Kie_drm

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I’ve struggled with depression for years. Last year I got out of a violent relationship. My ex partner had severe psychiatric problems but I thought I could ‘help manage it’ he ended up using violence occasionally and I left for good after he held a knife to my throat.
He took an overdose after this, leaving a note in his pocket blaming me.

I know I shouldn’t blame myself but he spent so long saying everything was my fault and to leave that note, he must’ve really hated me for leaving..

This is affecting me so much, I’m very needy and anxious. Struggling to get back to myself.. feel like i don’t deserve to be here at times..
 
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EstherRose94

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It’s absolutely not your fault and you need to keep reminding yourself that. Your partner’s wellbeing is never your responsibility. The fact that you felt some guilt just means you’re a caring sweet person, which should just add to the evidence that you’re definitely not to blame.
 

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