Depression/Anxiety - never ending emotional rollercoaster you DONT want to be on.

[TylersOutlet24]

Sometimes I feel like I am viewing my life from a 3rd person perspective (through a looking glass).

And no matter how hard you try to steer it in the right direction of positivity and happiness you have a proverbial magnet pulling you back down to the depths again.

Mental Health is something that needs management and ongoing maintenance to maintain - I am not naive to think the problems will vanish. Its just I wish the feeling would go away - sometimes I feel empty.

Anyone else experience this persistent feeling?

 

[bpd2020]

I struggle with feeling empty too. It is a horrid feeling. I am sorry it happens to you.

 

[Bizzarebitrary]

Yes, that's a very familiar description. Disconnected from my feelings and whatever I'm doing, it was how I survived until I found alternatives. The awful emptiness was unbearable. And the seemingly endless waiting, for a new therapy, a new drug or death.

You may feel very alone but you're not, I see you. As you struggle with your mental health, there's still a "you" in there, apart from the depression, expressing yourself marvelously. It's tiring though, isn't it? The constant work, learning to manage and learning the insidious ways this illness finds to undermine our lives.

 

[TylersOutlet24]

Thanks BPD and Bizzarebitrary

Yes, the empty feeling is with all intensive purposes - utterly all consuming

You are so right Bizzarebitrary! Please share more to me about the alternatives you found to help when you spoke about surviving.

In addition - yes I do try to still be ME and improve as a person even while suffering with this grey cloud disease, I mean what else can you do? We have to fight it. You are so right on the constant work of the illness, its like having a permanent monkey on your back.

Anyway - keep moving on up, as they say!