- Jan 6, 2019
I've just started my second semester of my first year at university. I have a history of social anxiety and depression and all of my bouts of depression in the past have resulted from frustration of being unable to socialise with people and feeling left out. I moved away from home to go to university as i was incredibly lonely due to having no friends. Since I've been here I've managed to make friends with some people but have since isolated myself from them due to my own anxiety. I am also 20 years old and have never had a girlfriend and see couples around my age all the time which makes me feel incredibly lonely sometimes even going home and crying. A lot of the friends I made in the first semester managed to get girlfriends and it really hurt me how easy they could talk girls and to each other. My social anxiety isn't as bad as it used to be but can still be bad. Now I'm feeling depressed and it's a lot worse. I'm very attractive and know that if i managed to talk to girls I could get a girlfriend but the anxiety holds me back. I also want to be more sociable with the group of friends that I have isolated myself from due to my anxiety. With the anxiety it made things such as going to class difficult but the depression make it a lot worse. I'm so lonely and depressed words can't describe and I'm afraid if this lasts any longer I may try and end it all even though I really don't want want to do that. I know I am capable of having a bright future ahead of me if I start to to think positively and stop dwelling on the past and the mistakes I've made. Please I need suggestions on what to do about my situation?