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Depression and ED for 40yrs losing hope

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Silent.Crys

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I have had ED for 40 yrs A&B but the depression which is now severe is what is making me wish I wasnt here yet I want to live a normal simple life not this empty lonely prison that is my home and my only world , been under mental health for 14 yrs and all iv had is pills and more pills ,when i ask for counsiling ,cbt or any other help they seem to think it wont work so dont give me it ,i have attempted suicide in past way past but all i am left with now is the dark emptiness , no friends ,no life outside my bubble ,walking room to room each day or surfing the net for hope or watching tv ,iv lost faith in the health system and see no reason to go on but still have a tiny flicker left to my flame ,what can I do, thanks for reading.
 
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ScaredCat

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Hi,welcome to the forum.

I do think is bad mental health services have only prescribed pills. Are you able to leave your house. Have they ever talked about having a support worker. Can you access talking therapy via a different route or would it be possible to try again to get therapy via mental health services. Sorry if I am just saying things you have already tried
 
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Silent.Crys

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Thank you I have tried talking therapy and as the MH discharged me recently as they said they couldnt keep me on their list forever despite suicidal thoughts, I was left with no support network and no cpn anymore, I can only go safe places like my doctors or hospital and as my children have all moved on Im alone,
 
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Sorry you have been left like this. Is there any way you could access counselling via a charity. Feels like you really need someone to talk to. Also BEAT runs support groups for ED I know. I hope having found this forum gives a connection of some sort. Do you have any animals. I have a dog and he is my lifeline
 
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Silent.Crys

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I have searched the net for help and the only help I got was talking therapy but they only deal with ideas not issues ,I am getting a kitten in the new year as I lst my 14 yr old cat 3 yrs ago and I would love the company again.
 
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