- Jan 4, 2010
I've been depressed for so long I can't remember feeling any other emotion besides the emotions associated with my depression. I can't stand having this label. I tried to take my life when I was 16 - 19 years of age. I thought finally I beat this. Suicidal thoughts least. Last year at the age of 34, all I could think of was death. Things were going okay in my life. So I thought. In July, I took pills to take my life, was involuntarily committed to a psychiatric institution. Now all I can think of is, why didn't I succeed? Why can't I get that right? It's hard for me to think of a reason to live. I won't try to kill myself again for fear of getting involuntarily committed again. The thoughts won't stop haunting me. It won't stop. It just won't ... I have had a therapist and a psychiatrist since July, however, I haven't felt that any relief. Thank you.