Depressed, Paranoid And Obsessed With Numbers

[Zardos]

And that's about it really.. I also feel physically ill.. I think I've eaten to many cheeseburgers..

its been a hell of a day... I'm about ready for my bed..........

 

[bpd2020]

I am sorry you have had such a difficult day. I hope you can get a good sleep and tomorrow will be a better day.

 

[Zardos]

Well the good news is I'm not paranoid.. The bad news is they really are out to get me..

so I'm either a psychic or a clairvoyant.. But none of this is helping my depression.

 

[Fairy Lucretia]

it seems like you are struggling lately zardos x
i was wondering what support are you getting right now? it seems like you could do with some more
and remember you always have us
love Lu x

 

[Zardos]

Hi Lu,

I don't have allot of support these days.. I've kind of fallen through the cracks.. I haven't been hospitalized for five or six years.. So as far as the shrinks are concerned I've kind of gone off the boil.. Last time I saw my shrink he said that the Depo was keeping me on an even keel...

and it was at first.. I was quite well when I first got out of the hospital.. But I've been slowly slipping back to my old insanity ever since... but now because of the lock down I can't get to see anybody....

I live in a fantasy world these days.. And I only come back to 'reality' when I'm forced to.. Its 7pm now and its another day over... I've got enough stuff in, which means I don't have to go out tomorrow or even get up early... I just want to sit and daydream all day...

I just feel lost... in every way

hugs