Depressed no confidence or hope in life.

[SweetBipolar]

I have been depressed most of my life. I am 31 and haven’t had a job or friends and hardly left my parents house. I isolated myself for years. I have no confidence in myself. No skills. Don’t want to live any longer. I never grew up. I feel that I am stuck as a weak shy child that people put down. It’s hard to get over. When I am around people I drift away and have no idea what they are saying. I feel like everyone is an adult and I am not. I don’t understand anything and I fear everything. I go online sometimes and see people who are confident and successful and feel worse. I don’t know how to change. Where to start. If only there were a program for adults with no confidence and inexperienced in life. That I could get help to change. There are addiction programs but not any programs for self sabotage and self hate. I don’t know how to help myself. Everyday gets worse. I don’t want to live much longer. I am a loser. I will be homeless soon. I don’t look forward to anything. I have no hobbies or interest or skills. I feel dead already.

 

[JeanPierre]

Oh no, why will you be homeless soon?
You must learn to love that inner child and parent yourself with all the things
you didn't get. There are a lot of us like that.
A therapist would be able to help, right?
Don't be so hard on yourself. Things seem so bad at night.
I don't feel the online people are presenting reality.

 

[SweetBipolar]

Oh no, why will you be homeless soon?
You must learn to love that inner child and parent yourself with all the things
you didn't get. There are a lot of us like that.
A therapist would be able to help, right?
Don't be so hard on yourself. Things seem so bad at night.

Thank you for replying. I live with my parents. I’ve never lived on my own. They are getting older. I don’t know how to survive without them. I am not good with money or anything about being independent.

 

[JeanPierre]

Thank you for replying. I live with my parents. I’ve never lived on my own. They are getting older. I don’t know how to survive without them. I am not good with money or anything about being independent.

Well you have time to develop skills, right?
If you are 31 they are probably not that old.
My son is 41 for instance.
Are you the only child?

 

[SweetBipolar]

Well you have time to develop skills, right?
If you are 31 they are probably not that old.
My son is 41 for instance.
Are you the only child?

Yes

 

[JeanPierre]

Yes

Not to be indiscreet but will you inherit your parents house?
I'm sure you can ask your parents to teach you to pay bills, right?
They don't want to leave you hanging, I'm sure?

 

[Champdee]

Sorry, have you tried speaking to a doctor