- May 1, 2020
I have been depressed most of my life. I am 31 and haven’t had a job or friends and hardly left my parents house. I isolated myself for years. I have no confidence in myself. No skills. Don’t want to live any longer. I never grew up. I feel that I am stuck as a weak shy child that people put down. It’s hard to get over. When I am around people I drift away and have no idea what they are saying. I feel like everyone is an adult and I am not. I don’t understand anything and I fear everything. I go online sometimes and see people who are confident and successful and feel worse. I don’t know how to change. Where to start. If only there were a program for adults with no confidence and inexperienced in life. That I could get help to change. There are addiction programs but not any programs for self sabotage and self hate. I don’t know how to help myself. Everyday gets worse. I don’t want to live much longer. I am a loser. I will be homeless soon. I don’t look forward to anything. I have no hobbies or interest or skills. I feel dead already.