- Feb 11, 2015
- Peterborough, UK
Ok well, I suffer with depression & I have up days & down days but recently I've just felt utterly sh*t & so alone. Ive tried talking to close friends but well they just seem to brush me off & seem like they're not really bothered. I just feel although they only want me when times are rough for them but when I need to confide in them they just don't want to know. I try & get myself to go out & do things, like go & see friends but again they always brush me off. I just feel so ignored. I just lock myself away in my room & yesterday, it took me all day to finally pluck up the courage to go to the shop to buy two items! I try to explain to my close friends what im going through & certain things I find hard to do & although they say that they understand, I know they don't. I just feel so lost & well given up on, if that makes any sense... I don't want to feel like this anymore, but I always feel when ive had a rubbish day, that the "dark" part at the back of my mind where I try to push my negative thoughts too, always try's to creep back & makes me feel so numb & well like im in my own little bubble, like im not here but I am? & my minds going 1000x faster than normal & everything becomes a blur. It's all so confusing & draining. I'd be so grateful for any help & advice.