If it means anything to you, I have a need to "calibrate" myself, in the mechanical sense actually, without medication being used.
I feel like a mechanic to my head everyday. It feels odd, but at least I'm tending to myself and keeping myself calm.
I always think that when I'm better and mentally strong again, that the mechanical and calibrate feelings will dissipate and ill just simply, look after myself and take care.
I suspect the calibrate mechanical attitude is a symptom of desperation to get better, to put lots of focus on amending ourselves. Like Lab rat said, this is a good attitude regardless. Just hopefully you do in fact finally get better and you can just, have a normal life and focus on other things.
