- Sep 5, 2018
I've been dealing with POCD for a good portion of my life. Recently my POCD has been unforgiving, and has made me completely question my sexuality. It's gotten to the point where I genuinely feel like I may be attracted to kids. I was monitoring my groin, as many sufferers do with this sort of OCD, but this time it was different. I thought about the possibility of doing something to my four year old niece, and I don't know if it was anxiety or actual attraction, but I feel like I felt something. It was minor and I wasn't fully erect, but the ambiguity is eating me alive. I don't want to feel this way. I'd accept the feelings it they were real, but I'm just not sure. If I am truly attracted to kids, how would you go about living with yourself? Thank you. I just want to be healthy enough so I can take care of myself and my family. I have a girlfriend who I am incredibly in love with and sexually attracted to. When I think about sex, it's almost always with her. I just don't know what to do if I did indeed feel soemthing. Any guidance would be appreciated.