death

[aysha6393]

if only i was brave enough.
i wouldnt be here.
save the family sum stress, and the boyfriend.
cant even tell him how i feeel any more.
he says theres nothin rong with me
but every1 else tells me there is
him and my mum are the closest to me, he tells me i'm fine.
mum tells me i'm not.
i dont have a clue.
i dont care
i dont want life.
therefore i dont deserve it!

 

[shell]

You do deserve a life . I really think you should go and see your doctor and tell him how you feel. I'm so sorry your feeling this bad. Please don't give up hope things will get better

 

[aysha6393]

thanks.
and ive seen the doctor about 4 doctors, 4 different psychiatrists, over 3 different counsellors and theyve put me on fleuoxitine, cilitropram (dno how to spell it) and they havent diagnosed me with anythin, none of them no wats rong with me.