Day in bed...new to forum

[Antonia25]

ok so im not really sure what to say or do...
im 25 and have suffered with depression for years but im now in a really bad place and finding things very hard
i am on 60mg of citalopram daily, and have set up long term councelling but just dont feel ready for it...not sure why...but i know i should
i have an immense feeling of guilt towards my husband who does so much for me with little to no thanks from me.
last night things got bad and i tried to leave because i thought he didnt love me anymore, he wouldnt let me go but it ended up quite dramatic, i put a question on yahoo answers and people were so mean saying he should have let me go and that i am to stop playing games....
i didnt realise i was, is this truly what people think?
im so unbelivably empty right now and see no way out of this stupid cloud thats sits above me and slowly swallows me up....
my husband was on here earlier and told me to give it a go...so there abit of my story...

 

[MisguidedGenius]

You shouldn't take anything on the internet, let alone Yahoo Answers to heart. A lot of the responses you get on there will be immature and have no understanding of your situation at all; admittedly you do often get a few good results - but thats far from the norm.

You're better off on a forum like this, where the audience can understand what you're going through. Have you thought about any support groups?

Hope it works out for you.
Good luck

 

[Antonia25]

support groups??

i wouldnt know where to begin... looked at mind and sent an email but got nothing back

 

[keepsafe]

to the forum and i hope you can find/share experiences here and that you will get something from it - no one here would be like that with you - Depression after all is an illness. Hope you can find hope here

KS

 

[sallyG]

Hello poppet..welcome to the forum..we are ever such a friendly bunch of people..keep posting your feelings and thoughts ..we all know how you feel depression wise....i hope you find the forum a useful place to be..well done hubby for getting you to take a look here.xx

 

[sajnis]

i have an immense feeling of guilt towards my husband who does so much for me with little to no thanks from me.
last night things got bad and i tried to leave because i thought he didnt love me anymore, he wouldnt let me go but it ended up quite dramatic, i put a question on yahoo answers and people were so mean saying he should have let me go and that i am to stop playing games....
i didnt realise i was, is this truly what people think?
im so unbelivably empty right now and see no way out of this stupid cloud thats sits above me and slowly swallows me up....
my husband was on here earlier and told me to give it a go...so there abit of my story...

Hi.
If you don't feel like therapy, maybe you don't need it. But it should be worth a shot. Who knows, maybe it does help you to let some things out?

About him. He does love you. Why would he stop you otherwise? Why would he desperately want to keep you? Unless you're rich it doesn't make much sense.

Fuck people. Especially on Yahoo. Many, many people are idiots. We all know that. If you ask for advice, accept anything you find useful. People saying your mate shouldn't stick by you when you're confused? Idiots. (Most people aren't. But they are really numerous, especially online. No offense to anyone here )

If you really want to do something for him, as a thank you, it's easy. You could just tell him how much you need his help and love him. His response should set you straight. Or just pick one of his favorite activities, maybe something you haven't done it a while. Do that. Repeat.
If you want to really be nice to him, learn Tantric Yoga or something.
Peace.
Sajnis.