Brimble
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Hi all
I know many of us suffer from bouts of crying but recently I can't stop. At least 5 times a day for the past two weeks. I have a chest infection too.
I am off to a service at Westminster Cathedral on Saturday to remember victims of C-diff (a hospital acquired infection) including my mother who died aged 66 five years ago, so maybe this is the trigger?. I watched my mother die very slowly without any pain relief and sometimes, no matter how hard I try, the image of her last hours pops into my head and I cry. Sometimes just one tear and at other times a slowly building flood rushes down my cheeks.
I wish I had one of those Burka things so I could hide this away.
I can't stop the tears. I feel sick, can't eat or sleep, can't even construct a sentence properly today. Is this a situational type of depression? or is it something chemically induced in the brain? Whatever it is there is no let up from it this week. I have to be careful who I talk to otherwise I'm off again.
I woke up crying at 6 am this morning. Life pans out like an endurance test and I neither want to stay or go. Stuck in an emotional no mans land, missing my mother and feeling responsible for letting her die that way.
More generally depression and crying seem to go hand in hand and my eyes are sore. I see my GP on Monday so it isn't as if I am utterly alone with this but try as I might I cannot counter the tear attack. My husband has grown weary of it but after all our years together - teens to 40s- he is still here. He spends much time in on-line war games and I study around the corner on my PC, sometimes we don't talk at all, but he remains my dearest friend.
Back to work next week and those smiling little faces pull me together. But today, this week, this hour I feel the most miserable person on the earth.
Sorry to moan - can't even type properly today but just wanted to reach out and say something to someone somewhere.
I am off again, a slow dribble down the cheek now, but thanks Mental Health Forum for this space to squeak.
I know many of us suffer from bouts of crying but recently I can't stop. At least 5 times a day for the past two weeks. I have a chest infection too.
I am off to a service at Westminster Cathedral on Saturday to remember victims of C-diff (a hospital acquired infection) including my mother who died aged 66 five years ago, so maybe this is the trigger?. I watched my mother die very slowly without any pain relief and sometimes, no matter how hard I try, the image of her last hours pops into my head and I cry. Sometimes just one tear and at other times a slowly building flood rushes down my cheeks.
I wish I had one of those Burka things so I could hide this away.
I can't stop the tears. I feel sick, can't eat or sleep, can't even construct a sentence properly today. Is this a situational type of depression? or is it something chemically induced in the brain? Whatever it is there is no let up from it this week. I have to be careful who I talk to otherwise I'm off again.
I woke up crying at 6 am this morning. Life pans out like an endurance test and I neither want to stay or go. Stuck in an emotional no mans land, missing my mother and feeling responsible for letting her die that way.
More generally depression and crying seem to go hand in hand and my eyes are sore. I see my GP on Monday so it isn't as if I am utterly alone with this but try as I might I cannot counter the tear attack. My husband has grown weary of it but after all our years together - teens to 40s- he is still here. He spends much time in on-line war games and I study around the corner on my PC, sometimes we don't talk at all, but he remains my dearest friend.
Back to work next week and those smiling little faces pull me together. But today, this week, this hour I feel the most miserable person on the earth.
Sorry to moan - can't even type properly today but just wanted to reach out and say something to someone somewhere.
I am off again, a slow dribble down the cheek now, but thanks Mental Health Forum for this space to squeak.
Funny how some things lift you up and other rotten things - like a senseless stabbing - bring you down.
the cause of your crying and feeling low could be down to grief over your mother and/or a chemical imbalance... just let everything out and dont hold back when you see your gp is all i can say and maybe try (grief) councelling too if your given any meds!
not nice at all!
