- Mar 24, 2019
I do not understand why/how my depressive episodes hit so intensely. I can handle life, I can handle my responsibilities, I can handle juggling relationships and work. Even though I will feel fine, it slowly creeps up and pulls me down so quietly I don’t have time to fight. I haven’t been able to sleep because of this feeling of dread and depersonalization. I haven’t been able to show joy in my relationship that I am very much happy in because this voice (negative conscience) is just telling me that our relationship will not work out (we’re getting married soon). My depression has a way of tearing apart my foundations and rooting in the decay it leaves behind. I am truly tired of the fight.