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Crippling Health Anxiety

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I’m glad that your doctor has taken it seriously and has referred you. It is right to not just assume its anxiety. And hopefully once you get the all clear you can get some help with your anxiety
 
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Seen a gp today and she has suggested a referral to a neurologist. That was without me pushing for one. Whilst she doesn't think it's anything other than anxiety, she thinks it's always best to get a diagnosis of it being anxiety through a process of elimination than to assume it's anxiety without little to back that diagnosis up. She simply said, people with extreme anxiety also get ill. Doesn't make us immune from other conditions. Had it just been the one arm, she would have pressed on with the anxiety assumption, but because it has happened on both my left arm and right ankle area, she wants to make sure. More for my benefit than her being concerned.

I have no issue with my eyes which she said is a very good thing and if it were something like MS, she'd have expected some sort of visual disturbance at one point. But no two cases are the same.
That's brilliant she's taking it seriously. I'm sorry to hear you're having so much trouble, it must be awful.
 
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I'm surprisingly calm about all this. That's not to say I won't be kinda freaking as the appointment draws closer, but the referral is actually a relief.

I think what has had the biggest impact on my current feelings surrounding this, is one of my wife's friends was diagnosed around 20 years ago with MS, in her 20's. Today, other than needing a stick to walk around due to some foot weakness, she's fine. She does need a wheelchair for a day or 2 per year when she has a small relapse. However, it's not always the big scary diagnosis people think it is. With a few adjustments, many people now live relatively normal lives. I'd prefer not to have that diagnosis. It's simply not the death sentence people think it is.
 
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Here's some symptoms from a few months ago when I was convinced I might have MS:

vision problems
tingling and numbness (Common sites of numbness include the face, arms, legs, and fingers).This often takes the form of numbness or tingling in different parts of your body, such as the arms, legs or trunk, which typically spreads out over a few days.

pains and spasms
weakness or fatigue
balance problems or dizziness
bladder issues - more frequent urination
sexual dysfunction
cognitive problems
hearing loss
seizures
uncontrollable shaking
breathing problems
slurred speech
trouble swallowing
constipation
women are 2 to 3 times more likely to develop it

A neurologist will look for abnormalities, changes or weakness in your vision , eye movements, hand or leg strength, balance and co-ordination, speech and reflexes.

Neuropathic pain is caused by damage to your nerves, and is usually sharp and stabbing.

It's most commonly diagnosed in people in their 20s and 30s, although it can develop at any age

MS itself is rarely fatal, but complications may arise from severe MS, such as chest or bladder infections, or swallowing difficulties.

The average life expectancy for people with MS is around 5 to 10 years lower than average, and this gap appears to be getting smaller all the time.
 
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BlacJac, I hear you, these last couple of months have been unbearable with obessive thoughts of health issues and i totally understand the embarrassment. Its a constant running arguement in my head, should i go to hospital, no yesnoyesno, its exhausting. I just wanted you to know your not alone, many of us are having the same thoughts.
 
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BlacJac, I hear you, these last couple of months have been unbearable with obessive thoughts of health issues and i totally understand the embarrassment. Its a constant running arguement in my head, should i go to hospital, no yesnoyesno, its exhausting. I just wanted you to know your not alone, many of us are having the same thoughts.
Thank you. I needed this post. Word for word it meant the world to hear I'm not alone in this respect. I just feel like a fraud and a compulsive liar hiding 99% of the stuff from people around me. I have no idea why I have this mental block when it comes to opening up about my real fears, but it's currently is what it is.
 
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Hi BlacJak,

I hope all is well.

In an ideal world sites like this wouldn’t exist because we’d live our lives without a care in the world. But we all know that this isn’t the case and bizarrely enough there’s something very comforting about sharing our experiences with one another.

Since the back end of April this year there hasn’t been a full minute pass by where I haven’t thought about my health and it’s crippling, physically and emotionally. Like you initially thought I had MS, then a tumor, brain cancer, lung cancer, lymphoma, rheumatoid arthritis, lung cancer, throat cancer, thyroid issues and heart failure. In my opinion my own curiosity ( & google) has created this demon within and it’s incredibly hard to shake.

I remember my first GP visit, my doctor said I dealing with stress and anxiety. I didn’t believe him. I’m a confident outgoing family man who runs a business, if anything I would say I was too laid back. How could I be stressed and anxious? How 6 months later I wish I had of listened to him.

Even as I write this messaged to you now, immersed in telling my story my breathing has relaxed because for a second I’m not thinking about it. I’m not out of the woods yet by any stretch of the imagination, but know that by being positive that can only help....oh and don’t google.

We’re here for a good time, not a long time. Let’s not waste that time worrying about what could be.

Here I’d you need anything... 😊
 
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Thanks Lewis. Whilst I'd wish this on no one, it is reassuring that others simply get where I'm coming from.
 
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Hi BlacJac

I’m new on here and came across your post and wanted to let you know you’re not alone whatsoever. I’ve been suffering with the same disorder as you for the last 7 years! spent the first 3 years bouncing around GPS and hospitals convinced I had an undiagnosed heart issue (and had every test possible) which in result would give me a cardiac arrest. I noticed my symptoms would always mimic what I was scared of most. I’ve self diagnosed myself with nearly every fatal health problem imaginable, like yourself.

ironically the amount of stress I endured gave me an irregular heart beat. Nothing dangerous, but obviously to people like us that means nothing. I have been to every therapy possible and never committed cause I was too afraid to leave my house and address it. My point is, the only person who can change it is YOU. Easier said than done I know, but I still suffer and that’s due to lack of routine and consistency. Over analysing everything is the issue, and hopefully the more you place yourself in situations your afraid of, the better you feel when you come out the other side. But it takes time, don’t rush yourself. Two steps forward 1 step back. Distraction is key, keep your mind active. And fight it. You an I both know our thoughts are irrational, it’s like having two versions of yourself in your head arguing back and forth.
Just do your best to keep your rational side in the light.

And I’m glad your doctor has taken you seriously, but when you get the all clear (which I’m sure you will) don’t question it. No what ifs, take their word that your ok. And start your healing process. CBT, light exercise and if medication helps that also. Keep the routine and I’m positive you’ll be ok.

Jake
 
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Most people with arthritis experience an ebb and flow of control and anxiety. These feelings are natural and understandable. Your life stage, self-image, relationships, responsibilities, economic security and disease status will affect your emotions as you manage your disease. best supplements for cartilage repair
 
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Hi BlacJAC
You really dont need to feel embarrassed with health professionals, they see thousands of worried wells. Its no big deal for them to you yes its huge, painful, to them its usual.
I too have this but its locked up right now. Once I had a fixation with the 2 illnesses that dominate your time. Notice how I cant type these words now. Its locked up, not gone.
Id say its the worst of all anxiety. Right now you are taking control, thats the point you are at, you did it. You marched right up to the monster... hugs to you x
 
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Hi, first time posting. I'm a 45 year old male.

As per the title, i'm currently suffering badly from health anxiety. So much so, my life is currently one large contradiction. I'm actually ruining whatever good health I have, thinking I have some frightening terminal disease, you know, the usual. Worrying myself into such a state that the ailments I think I have would probably be preferable to the hell I've endured for the last 2 years. For information purposes. I'm on 2x 40mg of propranolol a-day for my anxiety as I reacted badly to other anxiety meds.

Over the last 2 years I've diagnosed myself with the following conditions:

Pancreatic cancer ( pale floating stools and struggle with fatty foods. had ultra sound, all clear)
Carcanoid cancer (had dry flushing, bad toilet habits, but got all the hormone tests - clear)
Melanoma (have a clear coloured line on my small toe nail. Seen gp and he said it's not)
MND/MS/Brain tumour (I have a relentless restless feeling in my left arm/hand and some twitching/tingling which is so bad at times. This is supposedly chronic general anxiety according to 3 gps as everything thing from my brain/head and spinal mri a few months ago was fine)

I have had many more ailments and thoughts, but left them out because i was simply too embarrassed to go to the gp and too embarrassed to type them out on here.

I suppose my main reason for being here is because I'm about done with all this nonsense. I'm tired of feeling this way. Both mentally and physically these last 2 years have been utter hell. I've tried speaking to my wife, gp and even a therapist, but i can not help myself from underplaying how bad things really are. I basically lie to them. Make out it's really no big deal. So they all think it's minor. They have no reason to suspect otherwise. I have attempted to tell the truth, especially to the therapist, but I just can't get the words past my lips. I really have no idea if it's embarrassment or what. A 45 year old adult worrying that he has A, B, C and D on a near hourly basis. It's nonsense. Depression I could open up about. I've seen the carnage that can cause and there is more focus on that regarding men's health nowadays. But health anxiety?

I hope it doesn't come across as me underplaying anyone's difficulties, because I know first hand how bad this gets. I'm there right now. I'm just writing down what's in my head. I'm tired, so, so tired of this.
I can relate. I’ve always worried about my health too. You’re not alone. I worry about brain tumors and get very upset over dental x-rays. My Mom has ALS and I am now totally paranoid about that. During the Mad Cow scare, I worried that I may have contracted it from my hot dog eating days. I fell in the river and was convinced that I would surely succumb to brain eating amoeba. The list goes on. I don’t know the answer on how to stop these thoughts, but you are not alone. I guess that, at some point, we all will succumb to something, so the key is to try and enjoy life as much as possible between now and then.
 
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Hey BlacJac,

I'm in completely the same situation as yourself right now, worrying myself to death that I may have MS. Posting here helps, as does speaking to my wife and family about it. I've seen enough people post here who have had the same symptoms as us eventually have MRIs which have come back clear that I'm starting to genuinely believe that it is not only possible, but probable, to have these symptoms caused by anxiety. It seems so difficult to believe when they feel so real, and the worry and anxiety builds up, but it's entirely possible so let's keep hoping.

Also, as you say, I find it very helpful to consider that IF the worst becomes true, that MS is something that lots of people live with, and manage very successfully and live normal lives. I have found that facing my fear instead of hiding from it can be very empowering. But it's a challenge.

Keep on keeping on!
 
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Thinking of you all with HA its very hard work to deal with :hug:
 
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Ive been this way over my health since having my kids. I did cbt therapy and was useful its about breaking the cycle for example i have chest pain. I google it and symptons i have them all which must mean i have a problem it has to be my heart which then makes me believe it more and the cycle doesnt stop. You need to break the cycle ie stop googling was mine. Also take your thought to court write down your thought and 2 columns fact or belief you will find the belief column full and the facts not. You need to pretend your the judge and looking outside sometimes seeing the irrational thoughts played out helps..i also write a symptom diary and look back on it and see i had that before and went away. Talk to your wife i bet when you do things will make so much sense to her and she will support you through it. Ive just started propranolol too hoping they help. Good luck x
 
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