- Apr 14, 2019
So I was having these thoughts about that I’m only with my boyfriend because I feel alone otherwise (with my family). And then I told myself no because even if I had to decide between him and someone else I’d still choose him, but then the thought that came up was that I’d still choose him if he is the only one I’ve known for a while, like if I knew someone else longer I’d choose them over him. That thought scares me. Does that mean my feelings for my boyfriend aren’t true? Am I with him for the wrong reasons? I’m scarred I don’t want to loose my boyfriend, he makes me happy and I don’t want to be without him. I keep having these thoughts that if I didn’t have him I’ll get someone else, but I don’t want to think that, I want my boyfriend and only him. I’m scared these bad thoughts mean I shouldn’t be with him. I love my boyfriend so much. Am I just obsessing over my thoughts? Reading into them too much? I have OCD and I get ROCD. I keep reading into it. I keep worrying that I just don’t want to be lonely.