
Colin76
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Well i have crashed back to earth with an almighty bump and fallen back into a bloody depression. I heve been hypomanic the past three weeks but have managed to control it pretty well, the first week was hell as i was only sleeping on average 2 hours per night but i adjusted the meds on my g.p's advice and got things under a certain level of control. Now i feel like hell in a shoping basket, sleeping 16 hours a day - if i'm not sleeping i'm just laying in bed in a dark room only getting up to use the loo, not giving a damn about life, hardly eating, self harming to control the anger and negative emotions, not caring if i live or die - hell i've even begun to plan how to end it. Basically my head is pretty f**ked up right now. I'm still taking the meds as normal though. I am seeing my key worker/care co-ordinator tomorrow afternoon and i have kept a mood diary of the past three weeks to show her i'm not pulling her chain when i say i'm suicidal with suicidal ideations going through my mind.
I'm not looking for sympaphy, i just needed to get this of my chest for a while.
I'm not looking for sympaphy, i just needed to get this of my chest for a while.