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Has anyone recovered from their experience of cPTSD enough to feel you can cope reasonably enough day to day?
I'm at the end of things now. I tried to get through on my own for years (and too ashamed to speak what had gone on), have tried to work with professionals to get help. Very limited help, am in worse position now than ever. Repeatedly told that people either won't or can't help due to risk. Which is no help whatsoever.
Where to go from here I don't know other than the obvious.
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I feel I cope reasonably well day to day.I have more good days than bad ones.

My bad ones are when I have been triggered by something,which I know and accept will pretty much happen from now on since there's no cure for PTSD.I just use everything in my toolbox to get through those tough times and then other times I just have to ride it out until it passes.

It took years of trauma therapy,with someone who specializes in trauma,to get to this point.I really don't believe it's something someone can handle on their own without professional help,and I think it needs to be with someone that has experience and knows what they're doing.

I'm sorry you are struggling.I don't know where you live but here in the US there's plenty of help to choose from if one looks for it.
 
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Thank you both. I'm in UK. Have tried various therapy but no trauma therapy, told when assessed for it and EMDR that is too risky/destabilising. I'm feeling suicidal with no way out of this hell.
 
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Hi, I'm somewhat recovered from the ptsd (75%?) I reckon though I don't believe I'll ever be whole again but that's okay. I've made it this far. At least the suicidal thoughts are now long gone and can be for you too.

For me it was the psychotherapy that did the trick. That and this one thing... I kept a journal and eveyday started and ended with I forgive myself and others but I'm not a doormat. My voices argued with me over this matter and I persisted all day every day with the mindset that I forgive others I forgive myself. Eventually the voices were reassured, believed me and eased up. I just wasn't going to war with them any more.

I had to let the pain go. I had deep seated anger at being victimised.

Hardest thing I've ever had to do.
 
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Hi, I'm somewhat recovered from the ptsd (75%?) I reckon though I don't believe I'll ever be whole again but that's okay. I've made it this far. At least the suicidal thoughts are now long gone and can be for you too.

For me it was the psychotherapy that did the trick. That and this one thing... I kept a journal and eveyday started and ended with I forgive myself and others but I'm not a doormat. My voices argued with me over this matter and I persisted all day every day with the mindset that I forgive others I forgive myself. Eventually the voices were reassured, believed me and eased up. I just wasn't going to war with them any more.

I had to let the pain go. I had deep seated anger at being victimised.

Hardest thing I've ever had to do.
Thanks fatty meat, I'm glad that your ptsd symptoms have improved, I'm glad that therapy and your own hard work have paid off. It is therapy that nearly finished me off, the breakdown of trust and communication following disclosure has been so so damaging. I can't see a way out now but will see. Welcome to the forum, hope it helps you xx
 
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Ah that sucks, the people who help us when we're vulnerable gotta be trustworthy and non-judgemental. At least you have this place. Can you not request someone different to work with you?
 
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Hi I'm suffering from anxiety and depression and PTSD. I find it hard to deal with day to day stuff even answering the phone has become a big problem and I just seen to be getting bogged down with everything. Any help would be much appreciated.
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Ah that sucks, the people who help us when we're vulnerable gotta be trustworthy and non-judgemental. At least you have this place. Can you not request someone different to work with you?
Thanks. Yes you would think trust essential, but mine shattered. Feel trapped as therapy caused more harm than good, unfinished. No trust in any more NHS treatment (am in UK) as they're all in same team and so much toxic stuff been written about me by now. I don't know what will happen, think trying to get numb and pretend doesn't matter. But it does,....I think? Have been suspended in horrible state for years before all this ridiculousness. Then when took risk of talking it's left me in this state. Ah well :) Thanks for writing x
 
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Hi I'm suffering from anxiety and depression and PTSD. I find it hard to deal with day to day stuff even answering the phone has become a big problem and I just seen to be getting bogged down with everything. Any help would be much appreciated.
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Hi Frosty, I struggle with answering the phone and being around people etc. Perhaps you could start a thread and ask for advice? Not sure what I can help with really, am stuck myself. Being on here helps a bit as there are others going through similar sometimes x
 
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It can't get worse than now. Surely. sTupid thing to say, suggest. Because it keeps getting worse. I need to flee services. Never believe anyone can help,wants to, immeasurable damage.
Feel in dissociative, PTSD version of that Macmillan advert where the man is out in the cold. Just wish there was someone who got it, me, to be kind and understand and find a way out away from it all with me. There is no one. Years of trying to get better and am landed here. I don't want it. I can't live this.
 
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removed. pathetic. paranoia. enough. thanks
 
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Iam in a similar position re complex trauma and risk. I was stupid enough to be honest about various happenings, and they did a risk assessment on me that I had no involvement in putting my opinion across. Various decisions were made that I had no say about. Such as there needing to be a more senior person in the room with my social worker,due to me being seen as challenging and complex. Apparently my social worker was against this ,but she was overruled by her supervisor. I suffer massively with feeling overcrowded and don't like being in confined spaces, so obviously it is more difficult for me to continue under services now. I was told about these changes over the phone and when I objected was bluntly told to phone the samaritans,they then phoned me back as they were 'worried' about me, and said the same thing, go to A and E ,which I refused to do, due to bad experience there before. . I then completely exploded and stormed out the house, and was picked up by the police under the mh act.

I just see it as more trouble than it's worth being under services, whether they will allow me to discharge myself is a whole other matter though.

I totally get where you are coming from, about disclosing and feeling betrayed. What I disclosed had nothing to do with MH team, it involved a fight in the street some time ago, but it was enough to cause them to over react in my opinion.I do think Iam discriminated against because Iam an amateur bodybuilder and am very large. I don't think mh services are suitable at all for people who were traumatised sadly.
 
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Physical flashbacks? Anyone else? Don't know what "proper" name is. Have you been given any advice on how to manage them please. Please. I can't cope with any more.
At tipping point with this, myself, services. Damaging self to cope, but this isn't coping.
 
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